b/p is just like a reflex. i don't enjoy it anymore. i stuff food randomly selected in my mouth and then purge. there's no glutony like before where i would pick my poison and enjoy it
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yay! cheking in like all days till April. This motivates me to not slip up. i'm being a good girl and thanks to topamax and i'm not starving and i'm sleeping well. the effects of starvation are gone! <3
yesterday i had an exam that lasted 4 hours. i was exhausted. but not too exhausted to not b/p. today i've upped my topamax and feel like shit. this monday is my father's birthday. which means i will b/p on cake :/ why do i feel so miserable. hope i keep losing weight at this rate. that means at the end of the month i'll be around 47 or so.