I've noticed something about me. I'm very self-destructive. Whenever I have something great going for me I fuck it up somehow. I'm starting to wonder if I have a fear of being content, dare I say happy even. I'm so used to being down that maybe I'm afraid to be happy b/c I know it will only lead to being down again. Who knows, I fucked up big with ( Read more... )

Have you ever just sat and thought about your life? Like honestly sat and thought about your life, where you're heading, what you're doing with your life. Well I did, and it scared the shit out of me. I dropped out of school, I have a bullshit minimum wage job and a band that's looking worse than the last. I never put any thought into what I'm ( Read more... )

I had this dream last night, it was one of those PERFECT dreams. I mean I was actually disappointed when I woke up. The dream was pretty basic, it was my life with one slight change, but the feeling I got from that dream was crazy happy. Hopefully one day that dream will be reality. In other news, I got a list of books from Gabe I'm going to start ( Read more... )

A face has been haunting me, it was in a dream I had. But it was SO real, so intense. I don't feel like going into detail, but this face will haunt me for a while. My day: well billy stopped in with what must be the most dumb kid I've ever met, it's his bassist. Billy still enfuriates me, but I keep him around. I like that feeling of anger, of ( Read more... )

another perfect day...yea right. I like this thing, it turns out this is a great place to complain and sound emo lol. So my complaints for today? Still no lead singer, and we are on the verge of booting our bassist, I'm getting really discouraged, I feel like Sonnet is going no where. On the bright side, no more drinking for me. I got beyond wasted ( Read more... )

haha, I noticed no one reads this thing, so it'll be perfect to totally vent and say everything etc ( Read more... )

I just got home from my first GED class, I took a placement test my reading and math levels are COLLEGE LEVEL, the teacher there said that I will have no problem on the GED and that by these results he would already put me in college! isn't that nuts!

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I've been a soldier for you, threw terrors unknown ( Read more... )