What's Wrong?

[xpiercedxpixiex]

I had a really bad day today, and that sucks. I just feel like total shit. I'm sure it has something to do with the fact that I'm on my period, but I'm so unhappy today. I feel so lonely and sad a million things went wrong that just made me cry on the way home from school. I don't understand how I can have lived here for 3 years and still not have

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[noteasytochoke]

I know what the problem is..

you dont call people to hangout *ahem*
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[xpiercedxpixiex]

Yes, I know, I'm lame. I felt kind of weird last time we hung out, though cause you had your cell phone out like you were waiting for a call. You seemed real rushed.

[noteasytochoke]

aw Im sorry. I have a horrible tendency to have my phone on the table. I felt like you were semi rushed to though so I guess we both suck <3

[xpiercedxpixiex]

Ha ha, yeah I guess we both do suck. We should try not to =) I have a feeling I was probably acting rushed because I just came from work or something. At Bancorp we were all rushing to get finished every night so I have a feeling it took me a while to get out of that mode. Brent used to tell me when I got home, "why don't you just sit down for a minute, you haven't stopped since you got home"

[rydellhigh]

You can always call me for two seconds, if you don't have long distance, and I will call you right back. I hope you have my number. I'm always around, someplace. ;)
Even though I don't know you nearly as well as I'd like, I honestly can't imagine what could be so off-putting about you to other people. You are nice, you are funny, friendly, beautiful, caring, hard-working, successful, and loved. Maybe you give off a vibe that you are too busy, or that there's something wrong. As much as it's easy for me to suggest just being happy and loving your life, maybe that's your first step: let it show. Let people see what a good person you are, and give them the impression that you don't care if they like you are not, that you are happy to be who you are and that you appreciate all that you have in your life as it is.
Maybe try joining some different internet community(ies)? I talk a lot about Suicide Girls because I spend so much of my time on it and talking/meeting people from it. They have a really, really great community vibe, something I

[xpiercedxpixiex]

Jude,
You've always got something great to say. I wish all the time that you lived here so we could just hang out all the time. You'd probly be going to school with me =) I don't know, maybe I do give off the "I'm too busy to talk to you" vibe. I just feel so different from everyone.

I got an invitation to go to a democratic women's group luncheon today, which I thought would be an awesome way to meet some cool gals, but I woke up kind of late and got scared because I would have to go alone, so now I'm not going. I probably should have gone =/

I know you're right, I do have a lot of great things in my life. I really am super grateful for everything, I just wish I had more people to share my happiness with I guess. You're the best thought Jude. Thanks so much for the invitation to call, you really are a great friend, I wish you were closer. =)

[faith_in_filth]

Renee!

You know you can always call me. Flag me down online. Stalk my family members for my address. Send me hate mail, love mail, any mail. Run me over in the school parking lot. Use me as a punching bag when you're on your period.

Anything you want, need, or just have-to-have, then I'm your girl. You KNOW this.

[xpiercedxpixiex]

Tiffany,

You're too sweet. I know we haven't talked in a long time, and I miss you. You were a really good friend to me when I first moved here and everything was going on. One of these nights the two, or four of us should do something. I don't know what because Brent and I are broke, but still, we should hang out. I'll be the first to admit that I'm really bad at calling people, and I always feel like I'm bothering them, but you should give me a call if you'd like. I got a new cell a while ago I'll post a secure entry with it. I hope all is going well with you. Thank you so much for your comment, it made me smile. =)

[xpiercedxpixiex]

you know Tiff, I don't think I have your number, I know you've changed it a few times, so the one I have might not be right.

[bloodyjellies]

That breaks my heart. I would be your friend anytime if I could. Your more fun than the life you live.

[xpiercedxpixiex]

Thanks Sean. That's very kind of you. We need to start a "Renee's lots of fun, be her friend" campaign. =)