Long huge rant about how disgusted I am with my life

[xpiercedxpixiex]

Ugh! I just want to crawl into a hole and die. These past few days have not been the greatest by any means. I found out that my school schedule will be so heavy next year that I won't be able to work. This brings up a hole giant crisis. My financial aid doesn't pay out enough extra for living expenses; i.e. I can't really life off of the "living

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[noteasytochoke]

But just think, when you DO graduate (and you will or I will kick your butt) it will mean just that much more because of all the hard work you put into it <3

[xpiercedxpixiex]

Yeah, I know. It just seems like it's more trouble than it's worth sometimes. I think about the fact that Brent and I will be making the same amount of money when I graduate. I'll have a degree and he doesn't. It just seems silly to me sometimes to go through all this trouble just to end up in a job that pays just as much as a job that doesn't require a degree.

[faith_in_filth]

It doesn't matter if Brent makes just as much money without a degree as you would with one. The point is, it would be stupid to just throw in the towel after all the time, effort, and money you've already spent on going to school. When I have children I want them to proud that me and their father worked our asses off to get college degrees, that way I wouldn't be a hypocrite by pushing them harder when they go to college and think its a waste of time. Ryan and I wont be making shit, even after our BA degrees, but at least we'd have job security once we found one. If Brent truly cares about you then school shouldn't even be an issue. Ryan and I have been going to school for years and we've already been married a year and a half. My parents haven't given me one dime for school and I still don't expect them too. YOU CAN DO IT. Married life sucks for the first couple years because you never have any money .. but we are still happy! My grandmother worked 2 jobs while my grandfather went to school full time and worked when he could. They

[rydellhigh]

I'm totally not going to suggest you listen to my opinion, unless you genuinely want to, but. Please don't put Brent's attitude over your education. Please. I would only consider--if you absolutely have to, or think you should--taking some time off just to make it easier on you, regarding your financial situation; because, at the very least, it's college and you can (usually) always go back and resume. To be honest, I probably sound like a terrible downer when I talk about this kind of stuff, but here is why: my mother got married young, and had me, and figured she'd be married for life and taken care of; she never went to college or worked. My father left her for another woman. So having grown up accustomed to seeing my mother have nothing to fall back on--meaning, no education or money of her own--I have decided that my ass is going to be taken care of BEFORE anything else. Because for however much you trust your husband/wife, things can happen; that doesn't mean that they will. But suppose something does? I would rather know I have

[xpiercedxpixiex]

Jude, Nicole, Tiffy,
Don't worry. I'm not dropping out. I was just so frustrated that night. Brent doesn't want me to drop out. We just needed to sit down and have a real big talk about the money situation. We're going to make a budget and see exactly how much money I'm going to need to take out in the form of a student loan. I know I can't quit and I'd regret it forever. I just get so stressed out sometimes. We can make it work and support each other through all the ickyness in life. Thank you guys for being so supportive and sweet. I promise, I'm staying in school.