But here I am once again. Sorry for the un-intentional absence. I've been having way to much fun for just one person! I have the best group of friends and I know that I will never have a dull moment as long as I'm around them ( Read more... )

Things go and change to make me more confused. It isn't bothering me though. I feel a little refreshed to know that I'm still going to become the person that I've worked so hard to become. I finally talked to my ex boyfriend and he told me that he's no good and he's a bad boyfriend. I told him to let me be the judge of that and blah blah blah ( Read more... )

Wow...this is not going to be an ordinary day. I can see this already. I thought that I just had a usual conversation going on with someone that had IM'd me and he...did his do on the webcam. Wow some people just aren't discreet about things now! I'm no more than a little shocked but what can ya do ( Read more... )

So although nothing new has happened since last night I feel the need to update. I think it's just because I kind of re-decorated, yet again. I was always the one who loved to do things of that sort ( Read more... )

So besides my usual events in life I've cme to the realization that although I feel fine and think things are changing I need to keep myself on my meds ( Read more... )

SO here again I sit at my Grams house with the best peaceful feeling in the world. There's nothing wrong with loving this feeling is it ( Read more... )

It is a very rare occasion that I'm up this early. Each time this happens I get the greatest blessing of peace. It think it has something to do with the fact that I'm the only one up and there isn't any distractions going on around me or in my head ( Read more... )

So apparently I've been the target of many people's....horniness. Why does this always happen to me? So Lindsey came and got me yesterday and tries to get me to have sex with him and his friend....uh no ( Read more... )

Can you tell that I have a cluttered mind right now? :exhaling: So here's my take on why I'm taking a downward spiral. My medication use to be important to me, I would ritualistically take it every morning as I would awaken to watch Charmed. Now I barely remember what time it is when I decide to wake up. So I fell asleep and after the second post ( Read more... )

What I'm starting to notice is that I put to much emphasis on these issues about relationships. I wish I could just disapear again. It was nice although a little lonely being left alone, not wondering what is the true reasaons behind actions. I just miss being myself. I hate being so interested in people that it leaves me feeling like I did before ( Read more... )