big gulps huh welp see ya later

so things just get worse. i cant sleep anymore like at all. not that i never slept before but now i just stay up and realize that i fucked up life and the only person to blame is me. i pushed away the only girl i would ever want to be with and now i have no one. fuck that sucks. life is grand!

awesome saw the doc today and he told me i have whiplash$ now i have to take 3 diffrent drugs 4 times a day omg sweet. i want lindsay back stat damnit!

woot just got into a car crash. with a drunk mexican then he took off fuck that shit. and like 30 mexicans were around omg awesome and they threw beer all over my truck. but i smashed the other truck into a ditch it was tight. but my only mexican friend showed up and was like im here to protect you i was like thank fucking god. sad thing is i have ( Read more... )

there is a evergrowing hole in my chest. i doubt it will ever heal. nor do i want it to. so that i can endure the pain i have caused forever. or maybe just

oh boy so iv just been getting worse now i have this cough and the stomach pain is so bad. oh lord help me love is a fucked up thing. ill never get her back and i wont get to say that im sorry for evertying and that i want her to have the best life possible. and hope that all her dreams come true. even if i wont be there to see her smile. and when ( Read more... )

is it just me or is the raining and thundering and lighting like fucking awesome. its like gloomy yet gorgeous. omg. the lighting so wonderful even tho you only see it for a second and the thunder crying out for attention hot damn i love it. makes the world seem so grey and gloomy. so great.

so tomm i got to see about this job at a vet hospital to work the kennal cuz they need one bad and i know the manager and a friend works there. and that should be good i need to get out and do other shit then play everquest. and also im getting everything set up for the spring semester. which is great cuz i want to go finish school and get a degree ( Read more... )

what up suckas. i have no life. omg. and no friends hot. but maybe once i go back to school and stuff. this comming spring ill make some. since i was gonna go to school this fall but someone messed up the plans and changed them last second and confusing shit. and so i cant get a job well i cant but ill only be at it for like 2 months then im moving ( Read more... )

been having stomach pains for a few days now i think i should go to the Dr. talked to lindsay the other day but she just gave up kinda weak if you ask me but i left some shit at her house. that she left. cuz i dont want it. and did some other stuff i hope she gets later haha. welp gonna go throw up i think stomach is a bastard