i'd like to think that in these past few months,
i have changed as a person.
i no longer have this negative outlook on life,
and that same negative outlook on myself.
i actually appreciate myself for once in my life.
and i have to thank steph for this.
he's made me see so many things in different lights.
i've gone through it all and somehow i made it ( Read more... )

so, i'm getting myself back into school.
ASAP.
and i gotta go through therapy for 6 months.
steph does too, then we can sue.
this money is soo gonna help us
get our apartment.
i can't wait 'til i can fall asleep with him
& wake up with him next to me.
i'm counting the days.

that boy takes my breath away.
the way he makes me feel is too strong for words.
i ( Read more... )

this year surely has been a crazy one.
i found someone who i can be my complete
self around.
& i've truely never been happier.
my mom came back home.
& my grandparents are talking with my brother again.
but i must say i am ready for this new year to roll in.

yesterday was the ultimate.
went to the flea market with steph.
& went to see seven pounds.
real deep ( Read more... )

to say its crazy the things work out
is an understatement.
my mom's detainer was lifted &
she was released 2 days before
turkey day.
she's staying with us again.
& everyone is treating her
like she never left.
i'm so glad to have her home,
to have her in my sight.

today was eventful.
i worked 10 hours.
but jonathon brought  jonathon, lexie
abbie & aj.
joey  ( Read more... )

so about 2 weeks ago,
i received a phone call.
all i could hear was the song
yellow by coldplay playing in the background.
i knew it was my mom.
long story short,
she wanted me to come see her.
so i did.
the same night, one of her friends called me
saying that she got locked up.
so once again, my mom's away.
im just glad to know where she is
and that she's ok ( Read more... )

on september 20th, i got on the back of a motorcycle
for the first time in 7 years.
the last time i had been on a bike was before
my grandfather passed away in a motorcycle accident.
at first i was nervous, but as soon as i sat down
i lost all my worries.
i let myself enjoy the wind in my hair & not care if it 
was getting messed up.
i closed my eyes just ( Read more... )

these past few days have been more eventful
than this past year has been.

i'm in such a weird state of mind right now.
a few days ago, i got a call from my mom.
of course i missed the call so she left a voicemail
saying she loved me, she was ok and she would call in
a few days.
that was nearly a week ago now.
& i just realized she somehow got on her ( Read more... )

for the past 2-3 months i've been dating steph .
& i really can't stress how happy he makes me .
no one has ever treated me this good .

i'm willing to do anything & everything to make this work .
because i know that i will never meet anyone who
would be capable of treating me the way he does
or feeling for me the way he does.

my heart is on my sleeve.

so i started working at sears portrait studio again .
i must say i love this job .
& how many people can say they have a job they love?
not many .
:)

yesterday i did a sit & its sales were over $1300 .
my manager admitted she loved me .
ily2, sabrina .

i'm digging up good vibrations .

i can honestly say that i've shocked myself .
just hearing your voice proves that i've been
waiting .
and there is no one else worth waiting for .
there is no one else quite like you .

things need to fall into place .
i'm tired of dancing on my tip toes .