okay so like, its my birthday I'm suppost to be happy, so why do i feel like I do now... It feels like nothing is right and that I'm just alone.. I dont know, its a weird feeling, and frankly i dont like it...

okay so in the last entry i kindof lied... Im so giving up on Christian... I still love him and he'll always have a piece of my heart, but seriously, i cant go on like this... Last night i cried over him for the first time in a couple of weeks... You know, its hard... Trying to say goodbye to something so perfect, that you didn't even know was over ( Read more... )

So i dont know where im at right now... There are ups and downs... You fall, and then you get back up.. One of my friends told me tonight that i shouldn't give up, not to loose faith... And you know what.. She's right... I cant give up on Christian... I cant give up on everything that I had with him... If i were to do that.. I would be a complete ( Read more... )

This is to everyone that I've been treating like total crap lately... Im soryy ok... Im going through a lot of shit with Christian and everything seems to bother me... Im pretty much loosing the love of my life and all you people can do is bother me about bull shit.. No one knows what im feeling right now except me... Im going through shit that ( Read more... )

Wow, my life is almost perfect.. I have the most amazing friends, the most incredible boy friend, and right now, the almost perfect life.. Only one or two things missing.. I love life right now... If I could change one or two things I would love life even more.. Christian has made such a big impact on my life its amazing.. I love him so much. And i ( Read more... )

Christian is so freakin HOT!!

Just to throw that out there....   Baggin body too =P... hahahahahahaha what a great guy! He gave me the cuties necklace and earrings... They're tinkerbel.. Im not used to this kind of treatment! WOW guys, its amazing what you find when you actually move on!!<33

My life is changing right before my eyes.... And for once, its actually for the better.... I n e v e r thought i'd say that....  All i have to say is w o w....

Just fucking shoot me down now........ Everything else in my life fucks up... What made me think that the thing i really wanted wouldn't get fucked up some way too...  One of these days im just going to up and L E A V E ....get away from all the bull shit for a few days... Maybe come back and start a new life... that would be fucken great...

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Times like today, I wonder if I made the right decision ( Read more... )