Labels. Definitions. The words seem repugnant. I know I shouldn't feel that way, that I should be more neutral, but one extreme corrects another. I don't want to fit into any boxes. Stereotypical. The thought holds me down, like arms that keep coming no matter how well you comply or how hard you fight. Willpower may give you the strength of ten men ( Read more... )

Cómo me duele este frio
Aqui en mi cama
Cómo yo extraño tus besos
En madrugada

Quisiera dormir amor
Sobre tus pechos
Quisiera vivir amor
Atado a tus huesos

Estas sabanas mi amor
Estan muy frias
Ven a darme tu calor
Y arrancarme el dolor

Vente a vivir conmigo amor
(que mi sabana esta fria!)
Vente a vivir conmigo amor
(porque mi cama esta vacia)
Vente ( Read more... )

The bluest iris that I'd ever seen
She vanished like a dream, sinking back
into the ground
Singing, 'Maybe I'm ashamed, and maybe I wept real tears.'
But maybe she was hiding because she wanted to be found

She put on happiness like a loose dress
Over pain I'll never know
"So the peace you had," she says,
"I must confess, I'm glad to see it go."

Some days I ( Read more... )

When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a woman, I put childish ways behind me. Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.

But where there are prophecies, they will cease; ( Read more... )

I've had a lot of anxiety since I found out that Mills took his own life this week. The funeral was one of the heaviest experiences of my life. Every picture of him was like a blow to the chest, his warm smile always soliciting the biggest hugs I could muster... I couldn't help but smile back. I crept into the back of the church and listened to a ( Read more... )

When Andy wrote this so long ago, I loved it but I didn't understand it yet. And I think that now, I'm starting to.

"I looked at the photo and saw myself stripped bare, and what love had done to me-- what it does to us all. Love strips us of our protection. It lures us out in a slow sensual undressing of our emotional garb. Love drives us to bend ( Read more... )

Seems to me that, lately, everybody wants to grab a piece and run, like a money truck just fell open. The bills are worth nothing. Only the feeling of loss and resentment. Yes I have created some bad karma lately. Could that be all? Probably. As you sow, so shall you reap.

Watching the Dalai Lama speak comforts me. I have a heightened sense of ( Read more... )

Beautiful girls really bother me lately. The world seems to be hinting around that no matter how wisely I invest or how much I sacrifice, outer beauty will always determine my.. revenue. I want integrity. I want devotion. I want no doubt in my mind.

It isn't possible, is it? I'll keep studying me in the mirror.

This week has been exhausting. Being focused on work has made me pass through this stage of being okay with doing things by myself with little thought. The limits that my body and mind can handle are fascinating. I will not be sad of anything because the freedom I have is really quite amazing. My books and movies are wonderful company, and when I ( Read more... )

Today I am at peace. Today the questions stop. She made me realize that they were pointless anyways. I was burning to talk to you, itching to explain just exactly how you hurt me so that you would understand. Because I figured that either you were ignorant or apathetic, but if you were ignorant at least I could do something about it. Wrong ( Read more... )