I maintain that having periods is as bad or worse as getting a kick in the nuts once every month.

And I'm really getting sick of having to use only my keyboard because my mouse won't work.

So I freaked out for a couple hours until I couldn't take it anymore and thought I'd take a chance at just taking deep breaths and telling myself I was okay, whether or not I believed it. Meditating. Well... It worked. For this time, it worked. So maybe I can make it keep working. Anyway, I started writing in my journal (my real one), and this is ( Read more... )

So I tried to tell my mom, and even though I approached it openly, I got just the reaction I expected from her. She got all aggitated and told me it's all in my head and she's been far worse off and I've had a great childhood (she didn't exactly). She said why should I spend time and money getting therapy or something if someday I'm just going to ( Read more... )

I'm depressed. I took a shower earlier just so that I could turn the sauna steam on and sit there on the plastic floor, letting the water and steam run through my hair, onto my face, over my closed eyes, and in little riverettes down my body. For the past few hours I've had this terribly heavy-feeling storm suction-sealed inside my brain. It aches ( Read more... )

There's been some stuff going on. I'm trying to be awesome again.

I think I need a confidence injection. And some creative activity. Good thing I've got those and I'm gonna be okay.

Though the river flows ( Read more... )

Demetri the kitty likes bubbles. It's cute ( Read more... )

It's inevitable that when one dresses up specially in any way with a particular someone in mind, 75% of the time their day will go differently than they had planned in such a way that they never actually end up seeing that particular someone and so they have to go and do it again some other day. Also, it isn't uncommon for the person who is ( Read more... )

Nobody I know gets it. The psychiatrists in the books understand. The people they write about that have come to them for help (wherever they are) understand. Other people like me who hide away, fretting and hating themselves in their houses and heads know what it's like. But I don't know who they are or where they are, and I really doubt that they ( Read more... )

Okay, I haven't posted twice in a day in forever, but I was on the website when they announced it: Jason Mraz has a new upcoming tour date (the only one) for January 20th... It's an acoustic show at a resort in Nevada. Nevada has snow then. Certain people will be done with abstaining from the use of a certain wonderful substance. HMM... Yeah, I'm ( Read more... )