It's hard to focus on doing anything.

Something's got to give.

Wow. It's been like 4 months, almost 5, since I've written here. Well, I'm pretty sure I still exist, and I'm doing fine and well and good, in case you were wondering. :)

I just want a place to belong. I want a place that I can be and feel good about myself and my life. I want a place that wants me to be there that I am happy being in.

Right now I feel like I'm nowhere like that and like no one wants me. Ouch. C'est la vie.

It's sort of like coming down from the moon. And both places are pretty equally amazing to be.

*sigh* Sometimes it feels like telling someone that you love and care about them somehow just defeats the purpose. Like, for example, I wonder, "Does it come off as an advertisement if I tell you?" Oh, look at me, I'm so great because I care about you! Aww, I'm such a nice girl. ...And it's not like that. It's much deeper than that. It's the kind ( Read more... )

I hate loving boys... But it's so much fun. *sigh* Why are they so lovable? Lol, it's so funny. Sometimes I think girls are way hotter than guys, but then I think guys are way more lovable than girls. And when lovable guys are hot, it just kills me.

People Q's ( Read more... )

I've been feeling kind of "meh" and out of sorts for the past couple days, and I've got some good alone time now (I'm still in Santa Barbara), so I figured maybe some writing might help ( Read more... )

Sometimes I don't feel real ( Read more... )

You start to wonder about things when you've been with a guy for almost three years and he's always come through, one sweet, cute, adorable way or another, every single rare time you've ever begun to think that maybe things weren't right or considered doing some angry stupid girl thing. I mean, it's not like we don't ever get mad or that we don't ( Read more... )