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Hmm...
Ever had somebody tell you basically, right to your face, that you aren't considered their friend? Well...that happened today. Maybe it just kinda came out wrong, maybe im just thinking wrong (after all, my mind is all screwed up in how it works...depression sucks) but I thought about it alot though, and it still seems odd. Ohh well. Im not worried ( Read more... ) -
Hmm...
Im still alive. School sucks...not that I have to go to class and all, just time. Maybe thats what part of my problem is. Other than the fact that I am lonely all the time, I just wish I could hang out with my friends more. Between me working with the schedule I have, and then of course they have classes and work too, it just sucks. I guess this is ( Read more... ) -
Short Update...
I dunno...I try to think about other things, keep my mind off all the bad shit that is happening all aroune me, but it doesn't always work. Sometimes it keeps me up at night, which really sucks, and sometimes it just makes me feel sick to my stomach and not be able to eat. I really hate it. I wish I could be more like most people that can just ( Read more... ) -
Hmm...
A kinda miricle has happened and saved me for now. I dont know about later though...we'll see. Bye.
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I want it to end...
I dont wanna live anymore. Thats it. Im done. It seems like everybody that ever has said they cared for me, loved me, or whatever has left me. I have nothing. My friends hardly ever talk to me at all...I know they have their own lives, but not even a call once in a while just to see how things are going. I cant keep this all up. Its over for me. I ( Read more... ) -
Better or worse?
I dont know how I am supposed to feel right now. I mean...it seems like, maybe something might get better for me, but then its like supprise, uhh, we're gonna shove this stick deeper in your ass. Of course nothing is going on my ass, exit only, and if anyone tries to, they will have a bad day, and would prob be missing a body part (or several) if ( Read more... ) -
Still down...
My net is still down. Just wanted to make a quick post to update. Anyways, things just seem to be getting worse and worse. I dunno, im just trying to hang in there. Drop me a line. later,
-Teufel Drache -
I quit...
Ok, so my net has been down recently. Damn Verizon. Its pissing me off. It comes on for a little bit at night sometimes, but then it goes off not long after it. Anyways, so I called her the other day, but things didn't seem to come out quite right. She got a bit upset, and I can understand. Im sorry about that. I was just worried and all about her ( Read more... ) -
Game Over
I got a call today...and it was just as I was dreading, not the badly dreading call, the sad dreading one. She left a message saying she had been busy, but she was happy there and all was well. Yeah...all is well for her...and im happy for her...damn that hurts. More than I can explain. I dont know why this always happens to me. I mean, I can't be ( Read more... ) -
Is it too late?
Valentine's day. I was a little bit happy last year at this time. The were problems, but I had somebody. That has since long past. It just...I can't deal with somebody who just thinks about herself; wants to be in a relationship but doesn't care how the other person feels or anything. But anyways, it seems so odd that just 2 weeks ago or something ( Read more... )