life has taken some very strange, unexpected turns this past week. i feel i should have seen something coming, considering the trend of the past few years of life kicking my feet out from under me. just a week ago, i was engaged to be married, and happy, and in love. i find myself having conversations in my head a lot now, because i've got nearly ( Read more... )

i wish you could find me in better circumstances. sadly, it's all my fault. i need to be a better partner. a better parent. a better person all the way around. i want to be. the road has been pretty rough lately. i wish i had listened more intently. i hope it's not too late. i PRAY it's not too late. i only had the best intentions. i don't like to ( Read more... )

i miss my friends.

i want to get out of this place as soon as possible.

it hurts.

please pray/wish/hope that something opens up for us soon. any sort of opportunity, really.

thanks.

goodnight.

There's an ever-increasing anger that i'm trying to deal with lately. It's in my own heart, and it's for the woman we live with. Alyssa's mother ( Read more... )

I'm sooooooo tired! I got horrible sleep last night, and i'm not sure why. I just couldn't get comfortable. Alyssa and I kept waking up all through the night. I actually woke up once to, "Can you move? You're SQUISHING ME!" At another point, I almost rolled onto the floor ( Read more... )

I AM REDEEMED ( Read more... )

i woke up today feeling really strange. physically drained, and really bored. i don't understand it. i think it's just wearing on me. (not having a job ( Read more... )

when i said that the bottom dropped out, i really didn't think it would get so much worse so damn quickly.

the landlord found out that we're here. zach told her that we're just visiting. but she doesn't want us here, and if we stay, everyone gets thrown out.

so we're without.

help?

I really just want to sleep today. Alyssa's still in the hospital, and we're not sure if she's coming home tonight. This sucks ( Read more... )

Alyssa just took an ambulance back to the hospital. This is the second time since she had her surgery on Wednesday. She was in so much pain that she was having trouble standing up. I had to help her get dressed. This sucks, for several reasons. Her insurance ran out on the first of December. Plus, the doctor has some secret bad news for her. He ( Read more... )