friday i ran into this boy i was friends with growing up ( Read more... )

when did life become a hassle?
when did happiness become a chore?

i guess this is growing up, what i've wanted. i guess my uncertainty towards certain things in life isn't abnormal at all. still though, it baffles me how carefree people can be. it's like you have to be stupid to be happy. ignorance really is bliss.sometimes i just don't see the ( Read more... )

i've already convinced myself that after i write this journal entry, and chain smoke a few cigarettes i will be perfectly fine. but until then, let me feel sorry for myself.

i feel like my last journal entry was almost foreshadowing..
it's all been laid out on the table. feelings, and lack there of.and i'm disappointed but i don't feel like i have ( Read more... )

maybe i am just some swoony little school girl.

maybe i'm too young to care, and i shouldn't take peoples actions so seriously.
it would help if i could keep from self from analyzing all of his words.

i wish i could [whole heartedly] say that i'm done ( Read more... )

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xmagick happensx: ugh.
u b l u m e y: ughhghg
xmagick happensx: there arent enough ugh's in the world..
u b l u m e y: i know

i'm so emotionally drained. friday was awesome.
saturday on the other hand.. well i'll get to that in a second.

friday me, carrie, and lauren went to club live. so that's always fun. we drank ridiculous amounts of alcohol ( Read more... )

getting over someone is a long, depressing process.

i wish i could just break down and cry. beg him.
i wish that if i did it would make a difference.

if only i could manage to spit out the things i'm thinking every time i make that drunken, sobbing phone call that i always end up making.

if i could just show him how much i still care, instead of ( Read more... )

i don't like anyone.
like in a .. "romantic" way.

it's kind of a relief.
but it's kind of lonely.

rilo kiley is june 1st, and i am ridiculously excited.
i will finally have my damn license by july.
that is also super exciting.

i have nothing more to say.
except, i pretty much love life. ♥

EDIT: i quit loving life when i realized i have 31 days ( Read more... )

well, well, welllll ( Read more... )

( this is what happens when me and monique get high. )