I just don't know what I'll do if I can't get past this plateau.

I binged yesterday and got back on track today.

Wow... did I actually just say that?
I guess not everything is black and white.

Blah, I wish I wasn't so obsessive.

Today was a good day, especially since I was surrounded by junk food since I woke up. I baked a cake and helped plan a party, which involved putting out chocolates and cupcakes and everything else I usually binge on. All I really ate today was some fruit and sushi and carrots. I figured I'm a lot better off eating sushi than what everyone else was ( Read more... )

Staying on track is way easier when I'm keeping busy. I've been eating really well and have refrained from weighing myself. I can see small changes in my body already. I can't wait to feel like a small girl, and fit into clothes at every store I walk into. I should be working out more, but I just haven't gotten into it yet. I've just been making an ( Read more... )

Writing in this journal is a huge step for me. I've gained back a lot of weight. This morning I weighed 183. I do carry it well. People estimate my weight a lot lower than what it actually is. Still, I can't stand feeling uncomfortable in my clothes, and in my skin. Is it normal to have clothes in every size ( Read more... )

Even though I hate going through what I do, restricting sometimes makes me feel really powerful and in control.

I've been inspired to slowly transition from vegetarian to vegan!
Wish me luck!

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