I slipped up. I tried to so fucking hard and went a really long time...or at least it seemed like a really long time, it seemed like decades ( Read more... )

Is an elaborate dream:and if you look at your reflection is it all you want to be:what if you could look right through the cracks would you find yourself afraid to see ( Read more... )

Classes are just a little overwhelming. The amount of homework, the amount of time. I have no time to think and I haven't decided if that's a good or bad thing yet. Perhaps a little bit of both? meh ( Read more... )

It just wont go away.

I cant do it. I need to get drunk.

I'm going insane. Crazy how slow a process this is. I feel like everything I am is covered in glue, my movement is slowed, my insides are deadened. I can't feel anything on the outside as well. I tried to. I tried to prove that I was real but nothing came of it. The blood is just a filling. It's what keeps me upright, gives me substance. There's ( Read more... )

It's been a long two days. Very long. In fact, the past two seem like a month. I'm so tired but I cant sleep. I'm depressed but I can't cry. I'm pissed but I cant yell. I'm fucking all over the place and hardly anything is making sense. I knew this would happen. It's a new quarter, it's the same fucking routine. Get up, smile, smile, smile my way ( Read more... )

( Month by month )

Ummm, the first one is a little wierd....

In 2007, ( Read more... )

The last couple days I have been miserable. I know a big part of it is that I have been sleeping so much and once I fall into that routine I go downhill until I hit something hard. Yesterday I pestered Sabrina about getting drunk and we did but it didn't last for very long and I was right back where I was. I honestly don't know why I have been so ( Read more... )

( Fear is only in our minds but it's taking over all the time. )