I have been trying to write a personal essay recently. It's not coming along as well as I'd hoped. Everytime I sit to write it, I get this strange feeling of dread and almost terror. I look at what I've already written(which is only 1 page) and get really annoyed. Why am I feeling like this? This is brand new to me. I want to write it, dammit, it's ( Read more... )

So I recently become a hermit. The past two days I've not left the house. Once I get into this routine it's hard to break out of it unless I have strong motivation to and even then, that has to happen spontaneously. I have been sleen an unusual amount of hours. Perhaps it's just winter taking it's toll. I've been sleeping more than half the day ( Read more... )

"And Something's odd - within -
That person that I was -
And this One - do not feel the same -
Could it be Madness - this?"
-Emily DickensonSleeping, it seems, has been all I can do. I slept for 11 hours last night, only to fall asleep again today for another 4. I had the strangest dream as well. My eye had fallen out. It was huge and bulky and I ( Read more... )

On the twelfth day of Christmas, ( Read more... )

This break from classes is happening to fast. In about 2 weeks it'll be time to start all over again. Granted, my schedule is slightly different than last quarters but it's still routine ( Read more... )

( What else should I be/All apologies )

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I'm a liar and a fake. I hate myself. All I can do is lie. And when anything honest does slip from my lips I get bitched at. I'm not sure what other people see or how could see the things they say they see, but I certainly know the truth. I am a lie. One big lie. Everything about my life is a lie ( Read more... )

Friday was the last day of classes for fall quarter. I don't go back until January 3rd except for my three finals I have this week. This weekend I celebrated by getting extremely drunk two nights in a row. The second night I was much worse off after drinking shot after shot of southern comfort and then some of casey's aftershock ( Read more... )

Can I make it two more weeks? Next week is finals. I'll be relieved when it's over. I can be done. I'm tired of waking up. But I need to finish what I started. And I need finish it perfectly ( Read more... )