Really, I do. Why should I bother with this shit anymore. Where does any of it get me. NO WHERE. I'm moodier than I've ever been. I hate myself more and more on a daily fucking basis. I just want to be the me I was in May. When I wasnt a complete bitch. :(( I just want the old me back. I cry myself to sleep, all the time. I just Im falling apart. I ( Read more... )

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woot woot mother fuckers. :)

friends only
ill add you if i feel like it
mand-y

wooo hooo got back in here
:D

I got a new journal now

its xpinkxmaggitx
add me to your list if you want too i suppose if i dont want to rip your spleen out Ill add you too.

I guess what ive been contemplating is whether or not ill ever be happy as it seems now that happiness is anywhere but where I am, Im in a sad state again thinking about Chris and James and how much they were alike and how much at the time I tried to deny that Chris had a problem and that one day he would have hit me, I dont know why I fall for the ( Read more... )

haha it is my 19th birthday and its going to suck, I have come to that conclusion while sitting here staring at my computer screen... wishing i had a life or seomthing to at least keep me content... I still miss Chris sometimes.. and i dont know why..hes an ass for what he did, =( i dont know about anything anymore.. who cares tho..

I dont know why I miss you like I do ( Read more... )

The name of Amanda has given you an appreciation for many beautiful and refined aspects of life--music and art, literature, drama--and the outdoors, where you find much peace and relaxation, but it creates a far too sensitive nature. You sense and feel much that you do not understand, and sometimes you are alarmed at your thoughts and wonder about ( Read more... )