I am getting way too addicted, way too quickly - so much so that it has to be an unhealthy thing. He is a sanctuary, the calm in the middle of a storm and I find myself craving his quiet. It worries me - am I being affected so badly by him because I truly care for him, or is it merely a symptom of the whole “White Knight Syndrome”? I do like him as ( Read more... )

Sometimes, in more melancholy moods, I look over my life - both over the years that have already passed and ahead to the years that are yet to come - and all I can see is an endless stream of doctors, psychiatrists, hospitals and medication. Everything I see, read or hear about mental illness doesn’t seem to hold true for me. When depression is ( Read more... )

Meh, sorry for the spewing forth of entries the other day but I was bored and have been storing up a whole lot of junk that I have wanted to post but couldn't. So you got a serious dosage of Nikki there; might have been a little too much for some of you but eh ( Read more... )

Advanced Global Personality Test Results
Extraversion |||||||||||||||||||| 83% Stability |||||||||||||||||| 76% Orderliness |||||| 26% Empathy |||||||||||| 43% Interdependence |||||||||||||||| 63% Intellectual |||||||||| 36% Mystical |||||||||||||||| 63% Artistic |||||||||||||||||| 76% Religious |||||| 23% Hedonism ||||||| ( Read more... )

Life should not be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in an attractive and well preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways, champagne in one hand, chocolate-dipped strawberries in the other, body thoroughly used up, totally worn out and screaming... "Woo-hoo, what a ride ( Read more... )

· Coffee (and coffee dates):I drink my instant coffee black, with no sugar added but when I am at a café I drink café lattes with an extra espresso shot added, also with no sugar ( Read more... )

I wrote this a while ago. After a little tweaking, it's still relevant, so I thought I would post it for your viewing pleasure ( Read more... )

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Why is it that happy moments seem to go so quickly while the sad ones seem to go so slowly? I have been counting down the days until this week when I could see Him and the days have passed me by as quick as anything. I didn't want the time to end. I kept praying for some God or Goddess to hold back the dawn so that I could have a few more precious ( Read more... )

Despite it all, over and above everything, still I cannot escape this caustic loneliness that is hollowing me out slowly but surely a little more with every day that passes. It is impervious to any efforts that I make in regards to changing the situation. I used to think that it was just a matter of waiting, just a matter of time before someone ( Read more... )