It has been a long time since I have been able to post an entry and quite a few things have been going on so I suppose that I should do some sort of quick update entry before bothering to get into anything deep and meaningful. I haven't really seen anybody for ages, so some (although I doubt it) might be wondering what it is that I have been up to ( Read more... )

You Know You Drink Too Much When...

Your doctor finds traces of blood in your alcohol stream ( Read more... )

Can people change? Can a drunk ever once again be a teetotaller, a model of moderation? Can a whore ever feel untouched, untainted, like a virgin again? Can a leopard ever really change its spots?

There is so much tension, so much hostility and pain amongst the "group" at the moment. I have so far managed to escape it all, and as far as I know, there are no bad feelings directed towards me and I can safely say that there are certainly no bad feelings on my part. I love every single one of you to death and it breaks my heart to see the unity ( Read more... )

Oooh going out tonight! Woooot! Unfortunately, I will not be at Necromancy tonight. I had to make a decision: go to Necromancy, or go to the Cranker to see brillig play. Now, as far as I see it, I can go to Necromancy any time (and I will *definitely* be at the next one seeing as some lovely local talent will be gracing our stage). I haven't seen ( Read more... )

Another reasonably fun night to be had at the Cranker. It was especially fun because I didn't have to pay a cent. Namely, because I didn't have any cents to spend. I was broke and my sister kindly played the beer fairy for me. We were just going to hang around the house, drinking my Father's booze and such, but we made a spur of the moment decision ( Read more... )

This computer is being a complete biatch. My father decided to switch from dial-up to broadband, and ever since, this computer has been completely screwed. The Internet only comes on sporadically; all the rest of the time a little light on the modem flashes continuously and says that we can't connect to the server. Now, when we go to the iprimus ( Read more... )

Well, yet another weekend at the Cranker. Another weekend of drinking. Another weekend of getting up to mischief. I spent hardly any money as I kept getting drinks bought for me by two guys I know, Terry and Trevor. They are like, 40-something, but they are really nice and they seem to think the world of me (though lord knows why). I'm perfectly ( Read more... )

If you look hard enough (or, like in my life, you don't really have to look that hard at all) you can see patterns repeating themselves over and over in your life. I tell myself that I have learnt lessons, have gained knowledge from my mistakes and regrets, and I promise myself that I will never make the same kinds of errors again. Yet I do. I do, ( Read more... )

There are many ways to be close to someone, but nothing beats the feeling you get when you are lying with someone in bed, legs and arms entwined, naked skin pressed against naked skin. At times it feels like my communion - a way of finding forgiveness in the eyes of a greater power, a way of connecting with someone bigger than my own essence ( Read more... )