ok, so yeah...it's not easy...but i damn well try...i try as hard at this as anything else...damn...no matter how hard i try, it never gets any better...it remains the same...what the fuck happened?

life is good...i am so completely in love...and i feel so happy about everything...i love you baby, it's been a lovely year and i am looking forward to many, many more xoxo

God please grant me the ability to not be thin-skinned, to not have my feelings hurt at each and every turn. And God, please don't let me feel bad for things that are out of my control...don't let me let other people bring me down or make me hate things about me and let me find everything in our world that I need.

God, please don't let it ( Read more... )

i got my first tattoo yesterday...carpe diem on my foot and i absolutely love it. i have a healing factor or something b/c it's already healed lol which is great and doesn't even really itch like i was told that it would. i am very glad that i went through with it b/c it was something that i wanted for a very long time and i finally worked up ( Read more... )

it's a slow and quiet sunday...everything balances out. i had a loud and fast saturday for the most part, so this day evens out yesterday. life is full of lessons, tons of people to see, tons of things to learn...and sometimes it seems like if i learn one more fucking thing my head is going to explode....but yet i never stop looking for knowledge ( Read more... )

i had a long talk with my sweetie last night...i think that the talk we had was one of the most important talks we've ever had, just b/c it was a deep talk. i can't say that it didn't hurt a bit, but that's ok, it'll pass and with time i will grow more and more understanding. i mean, i understand now, but it's a little rough. i am so thankful ( Read more... )

life isn't easy...never in our lives have we been told that life would be easy, but i also don't recall being told it was going to be this hard either...oh well....if it doesn't kill me it's supposed to make me stronger, but i swear sometimes it feels like i'm dying and when it doesn't feel like i am, i'm asking why not...b/c it is so second ( Read more... )

had an absolutely magical evening with my sweetie...went out to dinner, talked, sang songs...baby i love you :) i am so happy right now that i could burst :)

what a day...life is hard...my head hurts, but even more than that, my being hurts...and that's something that i can't take medicine for...

it's been a pretty good while since i've written. nothing much has been going on with me. one of my dear friends celebrated her birthday today and i sent her my love and then another one of my friends celebrated his birthday and i sent him my love too.

i am so glad that spring is almost here...i can see and feel it poking it's head out about ( Read more... )