i'm still alive... as much as i hate to admit it

tonight was fucking AWESOME

it feels SO GOOD to laugh and smile and joke around... unbelivably happy right now

it'll end, but here's to hoping it'll happen again

oh, and thanks Tim, for being there for me =) and being honest... you do rock, i promise =)

i love you with every aching inch of depth and feeling of my tarnished soul

im sorry im a failure
im sorry im not good enough
im sorry for everything i am
and that i'll never be.

i reached for your hand the moment i needed you most,
and you weren't there.
it makes me wonder if you ever were really there,
or if i was just whispering fate to the

ryan i love you so much

i'm glad we'll always be together.

i'm in it for the long run too...

someone put me out of my fucking misery.

its like this little voice in the back of my head screaming

"you knew it wouldnt ever work, i knew it wouldnt anyways... no one loves you.. you dont actually believe that you mean something to someone, do you? pathetic little girl... stop getting your hopes up. dreams Dont come true, especially for you ( Read more... )

i hate myself more than i can even explain.

you wont understand why, or how. but i hate myself. and thats all you have to know.

i disgust myself any time i think that i could foolishly attempt to be happy.

it never works out for a reason.

i am meant to forever

be

alone.

thanks for telling me you spent last night with your little fucking girlfriend.

go shove your fucking tounge down her throat again. i'll forget i ever loved you.

its so much easier to heal when i realize you never loved me in the first place.

I guess i'll move on, since you already have. goodbye.

I'm so upset with everything right now i cant even write my own god damn poetry. so i guess here's the next best thing. unless i were to you know, stop fucking breathing ( Read more... )

lets see.. where do i even begin with the variety of emotions running through my head, ok. lets start here ( Read more... )