i started the internship 2 months ago and i am 100% the oppisite girl i was. maybe not 100% but i'm in the process of making it 100%. because all i really want to do is get rid of me and make room for Jesus to consume every part of me. so that its not me walking, talking, or breathing but Jesus Himself. theres some funky junk going on today and i ( Read more... )

i'm never on here. who reads it anyway? got a job at ralph lauren. in the process of getting a job at coach. glad to be doing SOMETHING. its been a very lame summer. probably the mix of all my friends giving birth and then no bff to have random adventures with is probably the reason why this summer has been so boring. oh well. the internship at ( Read more... )

i feel so stressed out! i wish i could just go on a country cruise, smoke a fatty, and try and chill out and figure some shit out. 30 seconds ago i felt like writing but now i feel speachless and that writing out all my issues and fears isnt really solving anything.

why is it that whenever i'm at church i'm the most happiest, inspired, passionate person. and everything makes sense. but then i get home and i throw it out the window. it just doesnt make sense! i feel like i'm the only messed up person out there and that in one way or another everyone else has such better lives then me. i'm totally delusional and ( Read more... )

so i havent updated in awhile. had a huge falling out with brittany and i've been trying to put the pieces back together ever since but its not really working. and i hate that. i havent heard from lia in like a month or two. last time i talked to her i was so caught up in all the stories she was telling i dont really know whats true and whats just ( Read more... )

sometimes i just cant help but be human. i'm sorry that i still miss him and i really totally shouldnt. he wasnt even that good to me anyways! i have complete trust in my God but sometimes i'm human and i cant help but stumble and think back to good times which seem so far away, especially when right now i'm totally down. too much going on to ( Read more... )

Its been a crazy couple of weeks. Getting my business started and then school and work and family on top of that. Sometimes life is just crazy and up and down and theres nothing you can really do to stop that. Never speaking to kristen again. Deleting savanahs number forever. I'm at a point where i just need to discard people out of my life and ( Read more... )

so i've been a bit stressed. i started selling mary kay and its a great job to have but i'm just trying to get started and everyone i try to get to help me fail me. all i want to do is give free facials and have you try products for free, not a bad thing? i should be leaving for school right now but i dont really even want to go. i hate wasting gas ( Read more... )

Very positive things happened today. I am estatic.

i started my job. i dont know if i like it or hate it but so far i'm enjoying it. i feel like theres a lot going on and yet when i try to write it down it feels like nothing. i dont really want to go to school anymore and when i even bring up doing something other then school everyone gets really angry and that frustrates me because they werent on ( Read more... )