and it keeps on coming. I know what is ahead. I can not be distracted. My life will be incredible because I will make it so. Nothing will stop me. Success is necessary. I know the responsibilities in my future. I'll put them off for now and continue to live for this moment, and this moment, and this moment.

control. focus. stamina.
measure out every action.
This is the new me.

I am here and I am strong.
Emotionless.
Powerful.
Embracing what humanity has to offer and leaving the pitifullness behind.
NO man can possess this femininity and this grace and this cruelty that I've always had inside.
It sounds callous but it is true.
To my friends and myself I will always remain true and loyal.

Why did I say that. I am not 17. Of course I'm not falling for him. That was drunken madness. madness.

I have either made the best or worst choice of my life.

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You start to crumble bit by bit. But from the ashes, a pheonix. Discard what you thought as truths, and embrace a new reality, no matter how slow it is to realization. This is the beginning of a plan.

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