Goonies never say die ( Read more... )

I freely admit that what I did was wrong. I keep trying to justify my actions as being caused by my feeling of inadequacy and being under appreciated. But then I remember that someone once told me that no one can make you feel anything. It's my actions and my guilt that are eating me alive. Its my subconscious and my inner voice that's judging me ( Read more... )

I did a terrible thing. I had no reasons to do what I did, but I did it anyway. I went against everything I know of myself and I lied. Knowing full well that every decision I make has a consequence didn't stop me. I hurt the only person who has loved me unconditionally. I tried justifying my actions but there's nothing more to say about it. What I ( Read more... )

My world is opening up even more ( Read more... )

I re-read entries from this journal today. I thought I had it all planned out. I remember all of the stresses and the worries. I thought I was some amazing person quoting obscure music and books. Life was not as hard as I thought it was in the moment ( Read more... )

Today is the first day of waking up without a headache. I think I'm finally getting used to the poor air quality here. I've been told that my next post will be worse due to the climate. It's colder near the mountains but I'll also be in a valley so the stench and haze will hover. I'm really not looking forward to inhaling anything and everything ( Read more... )

I am a clueless human being. Seriously ( Read more... )

Being lonely in a new country, I hope to catch the eyes of strangers if only to give myself some false hope of being heard. I write here because I know that there's very few of you who keep up. I doubt I can even remember who most of you are. Everything has changed since last time I posted ( Read more... )

I miss my piercings. Oh god do I miss them right now.

I know I'll never be intense enough to go through with getting my nipples re-pierced. And I can't have facial piercings at school.

I think it's time to start saving for a tattoo!

sonofabitch.