last night greg and i had a long conversation, about 35 minutes, about how i just am giving up. of course i was driving and started crying because i just hate everything in my life ( Read more... )

well. where do i start. i still hate my life and everything in it. and im in a lotta pain right now. i cant even update right now im so miserable

good evening ya'all. its amazing how i can wake up and jst stay focused. Its amazing how i can forgive and forget so easily. after the fight with greg last night i woke up this morning determined to have a better day. well okay ill be perfectly honest with you. today wasnt perfect but it was better ( Read more... )

to sum it up. after work i pretty much hit the biggest brick wall i have in a while. the moment i walked into the door my mood depressed to the point where i just almost slumpped down in a puddle of tears. I laid down in bed and started to nap, hoping that when i awoke i wouldnt be so miserable. that turned out to be the worse possible solution. I ( Read more... )

It is absolutly unbelieveable how much life has changed since my last entry. That one almost brought me to tears too for the record. Life the last two or three weeks has been completly crazy, to the point where living just doesnt feel worth it ( Read more... )

today many people gathered around the dinning room tables, said grace and feasted on food. but then again many people did not. this morning i woke up just thinking about all the people who dont have families to enjoy the day with. althought i just about wanted to stab my aunt at dinner tonight for being such a bitch, i was truly thankful i actually ( Read more... )

so a huge strom just blew through the lil o ' city of where i reside. it was very fun because of the amount of H2O that fell from the sky. now my father is sitting in the basement tending to the pump that is going off like a siren stuck in the on position =]. right now im sitting on my bed, the place where i lay down at night, typing away my life ( Read more... )

blah... nights lyk these remind me of how much i hate my life. so its saturday night and while the rest of the teenage population is out having a good time, where am i? oh yah home where i am every fuckin weekend... coll huh? not really. at least i got to have a beer tonight... a whooooping one beer. and it was blue moon eww. wud of much rather ( Read more... )

heyy there kidos. so three weeks ago i promised to keep an update of my life... hahaha how true that held out to be. but here i am, unfaaithful as ever... what else is new. im just hopping on to download windows media player and a couple songs ive been wanting to hear. lifes been... ehh i guess. work is work with the exception that i work with some ( Read more... )

so its almost been a year... wow. well thanks to a certain someone, ykwya!, i will try to be a livejournal fanatic to track every detail that goes on in my life. well as everyone may know the boy and i are still together... for better or worsee... no not married thank goodness. basicly my life has consited of home and work so far for the summer and ( Read more... )