Oh Goodness I really have so many thoughts I am 26 married two kids and still am having the same fights in my head as i did when i was 19. My life has been filled with bad feelings bad men and bad decisions. I was looking back at my journal and saw how i was soooo in love and then sooooo in hate and then really in hate. I have very strong feeling ( Read more... )

Wow im seriously wondering where my life is going to end up. I cant even have x mas day and not get in to a fight with my husband:( I really dont think its my hormones why we fight either. We got into it tonight bc after my mothers party which ended at 10 pm he wanted to go to his dads where every one was drinking and i didnt want to go well that ( Read more... )

It has been quite sometime since i have been on here last and after reading some of my old entries I have found that I am pretty much in the same thought process . . . . .:(. Its funny in a sad humor kind of way,I guess I should get my journal a lil up to date here. Since I last wrote John and I ended it well he ended it I found out that he was ( Read more... )

powerful by my side ( Read more... )

no matter where i look around ( Read more... )

well here is where i come to write when i feel like i need to get it all out with out ne interupions my mom is addicted to vics and my dad is addicted to coke and beer where do i fit in/ i guess i am addicted to one thing that is attention and love. but i dont think what im addicted to is bad well not as bad as drugs or alchol. dont reallt know ( Read more... )

i dont even know where to begin. Im not even sure the man im with loves me as much as he would LIKE to. . . .you know what i mean? i feel so average. not above or below just right here in the middle . . .i with the man i was with expressed more to me that i was worth a damn. i wish i could find my place in life; i wish i could start it all over. i ( Read more... )

i need some thing more to fullfill me what is it? sex? love? closeness? closure? i unno help.

well here we go again it seems like i only write in here when i cant figure it out my self ( Read more... )

ok its time to get deep into my life. . . I feel as though i am going to die a young age.
i feel as though i am going to die of some thing tragic like cancer, aids, carcrash, or some ting
of this nature. I am not really sure why i feel this way. Every day i am haunted by this feeling all i want to do is be good to people. I am not really sure about ( Read more... )