If everyone could feel the sheer awakening inside me that ive felt the last few weeks the world would understand ( Read more... )

my month ( Read more... )

Pain. I'm writing to keep my mind off of it, i still have another hour before i can take 2 more vicodin. It hurts so bad. I have never felt pain like that before, it was to the point of passing out, when in fact i already was blacking out from the pain. thats when i went to the emergency room. they gave me drops and vicodin but the pain never ( Read more... )

When I was a child the demons swarmed. Surrounded and outnumbered the picked at my soul with a knife. Diving. Slicing. Cutting. The faces of man seemed of the old and the moon unlocked their secrets. Scarlet screams and broken candles, I burnt my love for you that night. Scarred and bleeding in your heaven I found myself. Does the moon shine with ( Read more... )

sIlent screams still echo the long cold corridor. Where there once was a ripe passionate blood pouring down the cement walls now held empty picture frames and broken glass. The ivory piano in the guest bedroom still sang with the same unique gasping of notes, yet the song sang was now a different tune. Ghostly shadows dance upon the ceiling with ( Read more... )

Bang, Bang, Bang. The skin breaks around her pale knuckles. 7 days now. Entombed inside his cage. The look of anger in her eyes reveals the true predator she has become. A work of art, His pet. Touch me. Naked behind the cast iron bars, gaping wounds slashed sporadically across her back. Shes not alone. Hes here again, Feed me. He owns every ( Read more... )

I passed your house today. 
it hit me hard
first time in 2 years?
yet it felt like i was just there yesterday.
dont tell me I still love u
Dont tell me i still care
Because i dont okay?
 you will never know. 

I would die without the noise
wiping out the memory
playing over and over
inside myself
we
are
creatures of our own weakness
I light up a cigarrette 
to stare into the smoke
and put its ember
out on my hand.
I take a drink
Swallow
Hoping to drink you away
Hoping to choke on myself
One line
Two lines
seven lines
One puff 
two puffs
seven lines
one shot
two shot
never
let
me
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First taste
turned to desire
turned to hate
turned to absense
turned to Obsession

Should they know the truth?
Demons knocking at my door
Should I let them in?
Secrets circle and swarm

Running standing still
chained to the past
Desire is my life
leaves gather and blow

From the cold arises need
Worn pathways i tread once again
you have me
One gain to a million ( Read more... )

Soo sweet.

FIrst off he makes me dinner, WONDERFUL dinner, chicken with yummy stuff and potatoes and a salad and breadsticks and it was sooooo good. Plus, he had it ready the moment i walked in the door from school. So sweet. Then on top of that HE GAVE ME BURNED NARUTO DVDS. now that is what i call a present.

hahah

FOR BOOMPA!

thanks