Why was I the one that knew.. 
As soon as you crossed that line you belonged to the devil
I saw friends and family slipping away
unaware they just walked into their nightmare
An instant suicide, and instant contract to hell
Regardless of my screams for them to stop
They continued to walk.. aimlessly to their death
this time i followed.. I will stop this.. ( Read more... )

I was giving birth, I felt it all
I felt the doctors right hand resting on my knee
I felt you coming out of me
i felt myself twisting and twirling 
He was standing next to the doctor
Ive never seen him look so proud
I saw you for the first time, You were so little
Our innocent miracle
I reached for you, you know i did
"Let me see her" I asked 
arms fully ( Read more... )

We met last night didn't we?
I watched your now fearless blue eyes
watch me as i looked around the classroom
the others said nothing yet i felt it
somebody was there
"I'm not the only one dreaming" 
and you shook your head no
and i knew right then, you met me at last
i floated over, skeptical but aware, and you were still watching me
This is where i broke ( Read more... )

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Sinking in emotion
floating in its waters
weightless
alone I tread skillfully
your heart wrapped around my ankles
I dive deep into submission
smothered by love
a feeling I've dismissed for so long
choking on the liquid unknown of your touch
Panic
My arms desperately pull on my wall of security
Strength is critical to survival
The vision of you blurrs in fear
I ( Read more... )

If i had the time, energy and steam i would expose you for the liar and hypocrite you truely are.

Get over it already.

stop living in your false sense of reality and move on man!

its kind of pathetic, and to tell you the truth, i feel kind of bad for you..

smear my name in the dirt a little more please? because we all know how horrible i treated u ( Read more... )

an actress sits high on her cloud
frequent lies, narcasitic 
she drops feigning death and despair
she falls off the stage of ego 
only for a moment, she plays on 
Catch me she screams
and her worshipers flock
the tip of the wave turns white 
as the rest of what surrounds gathers beneath
My hero says she
A skipping record repeats itself over and over 
until ( Read more... )

I haven't written much in here lately, I've started a new Journal because I dont feel the need to share my life with some of the people who have connections to this Journal. I feel like an ass for saying that, but my new journal is just an outlet for me to express the way i'm feeling that only I read. So i apologize.  But I will update you on whats ( Read more... )

Everything I write I erase. For fear maybe? Fear of being hated? Fear of hurting others? fear of people disliking or disagreeing with me..

What i really need is to not be so afraid anymore.

I want to not be shy around people

I want to tell people how I feel

I want to have conversations and not hold back for fear of an arguement.

I want to stop being a ( Read more... )

yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

gus said he would marry me! hahahahah