Well woke up still hurt and i looked so bad but didn't care... cause i looked how i felt... cried all night last night.. couldn't sleep. Not even Vincent could make me happy! and normally talking or see him makes me happy as anything. Damn it! Well got on and low and behold i find out more infor on OKtober... *shakes head* Well I was told by ( Read more... )

Well didn't get to job hunt today... cause i had to drive my sister everywhere... grrr! Anyways woke up got dressed and got baby ready! I noticed how i give up my life to help with these kids that are not mine... they call me mom. And I been doing since i was like 8 years old. I haven't stop yet. With 8 of them now ranging from 3 weeks old to 12 ( Read more... )

Well, There is still hope I may make it into that course I wanted to take. Yayness. I really hope so *crosses fingers* Well I was out job hunting the joys! Going Again Tomorrow as well. Got to talk and sit with my mom for a bit. LOL i love my mommy. She so funny. She meant to give me a thumb up for getting her coffee and she flipped me the middle ( Read more... )

Well, I been really down and out as of lately... taking care of a new baby is loads work... But yeah! Dakota just turned 12 on the 5th... god i recall when he was a baby. Sleeping with him in my bed holding him close, changing his butt, feeding, burping, & When he started to crawl. Into my room and wake me up and his sweet smile, His first day of ( Read more... )

well been a really long time since my last entry... a lot has been going on. I fell in love with OKtober a lot more! He got me to stay back for him! He said he didn't want to lose me. I never want to lose him! Anytime he asks me "Miss me?" I always reply with the same answer "Always" Which is true! I miss him now so much! without him in my life i ( Read more... )

Well work was OK, boring as heck thou. Some people are just plan rude. Anywho what can i do about it? Nothing really! So excited about Saturday! Get to go to red deer and stay with Tilley and go to a concert! YAY! lol finally get to have fun! I got to head back home to start my forms for schooling so means i have to look at NorQuest! First NAIT to ( Read more... )

Well found out from keith that my sunshine is missing... That was a hard blow. Now am worry about him I hope he ok. Keith have nothing to help me out with said he dead or in jail. That really helped me. really... just made me feel 10 times worse. I pray he is ok and comes home soon. I don't need to lose someone again. Well sister took me out to ( Read more... )

Well Last night was ok. Went to see PYPE play! Which was good! I got their autographs yet again! Feels good to be out of a crazy world. To forgot worries & thoughts. Just to be me was a great feeling. That I long have forgotten. I took pictures and made a tiny review of their show. I help put up the flyers for that show. It felt good to see cam, ( Read more... )

I WROTE UP MY JOURNAL AND I SAID POST AND TEH NET FAILED.... GRRR... I WILL TYPE IT LATER I HAVE TO GO!

well everything ok for now. life just a bit confussing for me right now. I love 2 guys in which i can never have... i am friends with both. One great funny and cute. He makes smile and laugh. He alwayed picked me up when i was down. We just awesome friends. I do care for him more but what we have is good. I like it. The other one... where to start ( Read more... )