i take back everything i said in the previous entry. sometimes the way people treat you is no reflection on you. this is one of those times. some people just have an incurable amount of suck flowing through their veins and its highly contagious. he was one of those people. turns out, i'm still pretty awesome. that was a close one.

so this is it. this is the part that everyone always warns you about. the part where you realize how messed up you are. the smoke has cleared, the dust has settled, and you're taking your first glimpse of the wreckage. you retreat into your shell and involuntarily push people away but kick yourself for it thirty seconds later ( Read more... )

i'm sinking deep into summer and picking up all the pieces. i feel brand new. i've been handed this perfectly blank slate which thus far has been filled with: realizing the number of people who are there for me, a new appreciation for my family, new friends, picnics in the commons, being harassed for a living, late night walks, drunken saves the ( Read more... )

i'm sick and i just need to sleep but i still can't. i haven't really in a week. thats probably how i got to this point. all the songs that used to sing me to sleep keep me awake ( Read more... )

for a second i thought i should go put my phone on the charger and then i realized it didn't matter because no one was trying to contact me.

i should be doing homework but my internal clock moves a lot faster than northeastern university's academic calendar. its already summer where i am ( Read more... )

"If everyone else in the world wants to listen to neon-pop or hipster-dance music … that’s fine … I can turn the volume up loud enough to drown you out." -jason tate (manchester orchestra, "mean everything to nothing" album review ( Read more... )

i realize that a lot of people value the ability to keep smiling even when the whole world is crumbling around you. i also realize that i don't value that at all. in fact, i'm coming to realize that it makes me kind of uncomfortable. i don't know how to deal with people who only have one emotion and i think its a terrible way to live. its ( Read more... )

so this is my roommate's band's music video. it was filmed in our apartment by one of my other roommates. there was a lot of controversy over the concept so in the end, it ended up being kind of mediocre in my opinion. but i still think the song is awesome and the video is really well done. i make a few brief appearances. any time you can see ( Read more... )

Thom: You just haven't figured it out yet, have you ( Read more... )