wow. i've grown up a lot this past year. but, most of all ( Read more... )

jesus christ! i wish some people would just grow the hell up already. it's seriously sickening to see how pathetic some people are ( Read more... )

i got my boobs groaped tonight at work by a 6 year old mentally handicapped girl. ugggh. not my idea of fun. :(

& i had wierd dreams last night about me & katie going to dr. suess land. something just isn't right.

i think that my body is starting to go crazy from not seeing josh. mmmmmm. i miss him.

there's parts of me that wants to just sit here & make things right, again. i hate not having a friendship with him, but, it seems it does nothing but hurt the both of us. i didn't mean EVERYTHING i said to him, but, i meant most of it. he hurts me so bad, but, i guess i hurt him, too. & i guess it really is best that we aren't in each others lives ( Read more... )

i just got done watching "a walk to remember". definately not a good movie to watch when you're boyfriend is thousands of miles away & you miss him more than anything in the world ( Read more... )

some people can seriously grow up anyday now. i mean, we ARE past the age of 5.

nothing new. except that josh is flying home on july 5th for a week to see me. & i am EXCIIIIITED! only 25 more days. i can't wait. <333333 ( Read more... )

with every day, minute and second that goes by, i fall harder and harder for josh ( Read more... )

sitting here thinking, i can honestly say i've never fallen in love before. i really don't know what brought this up, but it's something that's been on my mind ( Read more... )

to do list:

senior year: 3 classes a day. work from noon - 4. cosmetology school until 9.

turn 18. graduate.

make josh move move to daytona with me. get cos. license. then tell josh i'm all his.

& then, just like that -- i'll be gone.

i can't wait. only 11 months & 2 weeks to go.

everything's better now. i was worried & upset for no reason.

work's going good. everything is getting better at home. & above all else:

i have the most amazing boyfriend ever. (who i miss more than words can express.) <3333

that's all. goodnight.