I was sick as a dog...with really bad timing. I couldn't have been sick later, or earlier. If I was sick on Wednesday I wouldn't have gone out, I wouldn't have encountered that sick fuck....

How dare you say that my behavior's unacceptable ( Read more... )

Orli's still away...
I'm back from town...
Apparently I'm fine...
Pills in my pocket and I don't know what to do with them...
CDs in hand reminding me of Billy...
I miss my brother...
No messages on the phone...
Been almost a week...
Viggo's back...
After I picked him up....
After being verbally abused...and grabbed...and rescued...

( So Fuck It... )

It's time to kick off your shoes ( Read more... )

( Lunacy Fringe )

She'll be showing up soon...I suppose it wouldn't hurt to have one, just one, to take the edge and nervousness off. I go outside behind the cabin, where it's quiet and just spark up my cigarette. I know I said I would quit and Keanu said he'd quit if I did...but I doubt even he's strong enough to just quit cold turkey like that. Anyway, it's just ( Read more... )

...somebody told me, you had a boyfriend who looked like a girlfriend that I had in...What the hell...there's no words, except in my head, and why the hell is it all beepy ( Read more... )

Stumble out of the truck and try to find my legs as they've turned to jello from walking, and driving...and just being exhausted. Christ almighty that was some morning! Lots of things to talk about, lots of things said and felt and admitted and now, where do I go from here, I mean literally.

( ...just gimme a sign! )

Okay...that had to be the wierdest conversation that I've ever had with Jake...oh my god. Alright I have to calm down before bed...need to get some sleep...okay, breathing is good. Just lie here breathing...not thinking of anything...

( Why? WHY??? OMG Why? )

( Of brothers, home, lovers and friends... )

It's just a bit of a song...by a good singer...a good song, but a crappy beat and really awful samplings reminiscent of "Backstreet Boys" or, dare I say it, "New Kids on the Block"...but still, I find myself singing it because it's irresistable....

What if I was good to you ( Read more... )