conflict. regret. uncertainty.

i have been conflicted. switched back and forth between extreme emotional conditions. between fire and cool water. from great disgust, great loathing, and despising of my own self.. the roots of me. where i come from. me at 12 and 13. me at 17 and 18. i hated.. and then i understood. i admired my sensitivity. my ( Read more... )

i thnk abt y mre thn smtmes
somethng abt the wds y use
mke me wnt mke me wnt mke me wnt y

bt i cnt deny, the thght of hrt squishing for a whle

uncertnly mkes me smle.

nothing is meant to be

wait and see

just wait and see

no such thing as destiny

just to be. just

to be.

i must be a rock w/ no hrt

or a stone w/no home

but either way i'm

not alone

either way i'm not alone.

i dreamt of love like new ideas too swift to keep up with ( Read more... )

tearin gdown wallpaper flowers and fences

mozart
cellos
flannel
hot orange juice (ymm)
chicken noodle soup

halloweeeeeeeen.

digging out of a hole.

___________________________

[i love the way you dance
we can work it all out
don't you miss your chance
the pain will all grow out]

i didnt go to see the city
i went to see it around you..(

2003 (stream of consciousness writing ( Read more... )

5 7 5

Im no Christian but
when i give so you can take
im more like jesus

(I wonder where you've learned.
and hope your kids are more like me

imagine that.)

a glass of wine on a rainy day
makes me to messy chalks
and pastel

i will play.

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