there is this girl who i cannot stand, and she's always posting all these status's on facebook about how she's trying not to eat, or how she hates gaining weight or writing how much she supposedly weighs, and it just bothers me so much because she gets all these comments about how she doesn't need to lose weight and people just trying to make her ( Read more... )

how the HELL am i still the same weight as yesterday after my huge binge last night??

trying to be healthier in all aspects of my life. i only smoke when i go out now (which is barely ever), i'm trying a new diet of eating 1 thing during the day such as a banana or hard boiled egg and then eating dinner as normal (because i can't get out of dinner often enough), i've cut way down on purging because i haven't been binging, and i ( Read more... )

i just looked at my reflection in the window and it caught me off guard how long my hair has gotten! i mean it's not considered 'long' hair yet but the more it grows the more i like it ( Read more... )

i am a lonely person.
i don't have a single friend in the country i live in.
i miss london and i miss who i was while i was there.
but now that i'm back everything is crashing down.
purging again, finding out he's an alcoholic, wishing i was someone i'm not.
typical.
so. fucking. typical.

( thinspo for the week )

yesterday and today have been better. I'm off work and i eat SO much less when i'm not working, because i'm actually going out and doing stuff and not eating out of boredom.
today i went on a hike in the woods and we had a campfire with camp food which i did eat way too much of... but i'm trying not to be too hard on myself because that and some ( Read more... )

didn't purge today ( Read more... )

( graphic details about how disgusting i am )

i just ate an orange and now my throat hurts so badly and i'm not sure if it's because i purged today but my stomach feels like it's stinging. i don't want to be purging but for this time being while i have to, i can't eat acidic foods, it's too painful.