how many times will i ask myself the same thing over & over again
do you want to be my lover or do you want to be my friend
i just can't deal with anymore of the bullshit and lying
i play it cool, but honestly, inside i'm fucking dying.

ya my writing has gone up the fucking ass.

sad how you can make one wrong move...and instantly, your life is gone. the one thing you have lived for, for so long...it just goes away. but you have to deal with it because it's your fault.

i love you &heart;

Happy New Year! Not really anything different except the date. I quit smoking as my resolution. So far, so good. I've only been awake for a couple hours though. I have cigarettes I'm just not going to smoke them. That makes it even harder knowing I have them. Ha. I think I can do it. I had fun lastnight so that was good. I miss Ty I haven't talked ( Read more... )

do you ever get so tired that you just can't sleep. i have become so numb to getting 2-3 hours a night, that now, i just don't want to sleep at all. i feel tired, but i can't sleep. the minute i lay in that bed, the tears start falling. i am in a big emotional mess right now. so many things are just leading the wrong directions. i don't know which ( Read more... )

Hm. Haven't updated for a while. Not too much has been going on. My life officially consists of school, sleep, Ty and Colette. I do nothing but that. I'm content with it though. They're wonderful ( Read more... )

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life is getting really boring. it's all routine. i need a change. i noticed it today, i took a shower, and everything i did after that was routine. the same exact thing i do every single day. i am getting bored with my life, which causes me to be unsatisfied ( Read more... )

Life is damn near perfect.

Something is missing though. Haven't quite figured out what that is...?

Haven't talked to Shan since last Friday. Sucks, but It'll be my fault.

No school this Thursday. That'll be nice.
I swear we have more days off of school every year.
I sit on my ass more then I go to school.

I need a job. Badly. I need a car and an ( Read more... )

tonight was fun. i thought it was gonna suck but i actually had fun ( Read more... )

Gosh, I haven't updated in a while ( Read more... )