ok well its been awhile since ive wrote anything in here, but alot of shit has been going on. first off, me and jonathan scott had been talking alot and got back together but that didnt last. its so hard for me anymore to be with someone especially with noah's dad comming around. i dont know what it is but something about him makes me smile and i ( Read more... )

after my major venting spell in the last post, im glad that people replied. your words were very true and alot of help. now i havent been doing really anything, taking care of my beautiful lil boy and helping my mom out. by the way- she is moving! still in reynolds school district but out of these shit ass apartments. im happy for her, its about ( Read more... )

someone tell me why everything has to be such a big ordeal. why is it so hard to sit down and have a honest conversation with someone? why is it that everyone feels the need to lie to everyones face or sit there and talk shit behind their backs. maybe its just me but i thought once you got out of highschool you relized to grow the fuck up! is it ( Read more... )

MY BEAUTIFUL LIL BOY WAS BORN!!! noah david collins. august 15, it was a very hard time but the best day of my life. it feels so good to be a mom and know that someone actually needs me. he is doing very well and so am i. im staying at my moms so she can be there if i need her cuz my dad works alot, but i bring him to dads to visit and will be ( Read more... )

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The more days that past, I wonder what it would have been like to share something so special with a person that I cared for completely. There’s times when I feel regret. Wishing it would be easier to give in, instead of knowing that I would feel nothing but guilt afterwards. My mind never stops pondering when it comes to "what if". What if I would ( Read more... )

how many people dying is gonna make others relize how fucking stupid drugs are!! im sick of losing everyone i know and care about to overdoses or shootings. i hope and pray that people who read this and may do drugs dont sit back and say "oh it will never happen to me" cuz ya know what it just might. i never thought that the person i cared about ( Read more... )

well this has to be the busiest month of my life...so far! wedding in like 4 days, then a baby shower to deal with. sometimes i wish that i was able to just run away and get away from it all. but thats not gonna happen for a LONG time i guess. how is it that someone can get this thought/feeling into their head and then it never goes away. i think i ( Read more... )

OKAY-this is the thing i dont understand, how people can sit there and talk to me almost everyday assuming that they are my friends but then go behind my back and say they dont like me or get mad when i hang out with people. im sorry but my HIGHSCHOOL career is over, which means so is the drama. if you dont like me...TELL ME...and if you were in ( Read more... )