So I thought i found a good guy.. but last night was weird, i got some different vibes going on. I donno.. maybe im just tripping cuz i like him.. which could happen i tend to do that. And i really have no reason to feel weird.. but i do. I cant figure out why, thats why im sayingit the vibes or something. I mean hes great, hes everything i could ( Read more... )

I havent wrote in a long time, but today i was given a reason to sit down and do thereputic writing. My friend Scott commited suicide today at 5:45, Wednesday, June 11th, 2003. No one knows exactly why, but I do know he's tried before. I've known him for 6 years now, and i miss him deeply. I've always been his friend that was there for him, ( Read more... )

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Im sad. Im the ugly girl now. I donno why, but I am, and it sucks. im becoming the ulgy depressed fat kid in the house. Kristi and Heather are all cute with guys flockign to them.. and then there is me.. trying desprately to get over my ex.. and move on to either another guy.. or to myself. Both are very hard right now to accomplish.. so i keep ( Read more... )

So.. i went on a short road trip to ucsb yesterday, went down to IV.. cruised DP and went to a bunch of random partys.. got lost a few times and had to call my friend and finally ended up in the senior house of matt's sis's sorority where i was hit on by a lot of ugly dirty boys. Soo... sll the girls we went with passed out around 12.. 1 ish and i ( Read more... )

ok, so i decided to tan my white ass this afternoon from 12-12:30.. but i wasnt hardly tan at all.. so i layed otu for another 15 min.. and came back inside. In a about an hour or so, i started to feel a little burt. I was stoked, this means tan by tomorrow right?? Yeah well.. in about 3 hours.. i am as red as a friggin lobster. My ass would make a ( Read more... )

The chain event of Bad Ideas:
so i left my car in santa ana, and was careless today, however i wanted to go to kristi's house to get away from my mom.. but she was too busy to come pick me up. So i decided to get me exercise going.. and but on my shoes, and began my journey on my "exactly 45 min walk" :-). Bad idea #1. So half way there i ( Read more... )

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yeah.. new home is wonderful. Special thankyou to Tim, Jon, Dave, Sean, Mark, and kristi's old roomies for helping us. the girls are in. :-) Its been wonderful, however i got really sick this morning.. not fun. But other than that things are going pretty well. but i need to finnish my film in my camera cuz i want my prom pics back.. :-( I need new ( Read more... )

ok.. my life problems in a nut shell. I think im one of those weird people who wants love so much that they keep comign back to the few that they have loved and know have loved them in return. Which sucks, cuz there were reasons why the relationsships never worked right? so why go back just cuz you love them. Friendships are the same.. once i love ( Read more... )