**all you ever hear me say is how i picture me with you**
**how come i never hear you say, i just wanna be with you. guess you never felt that way**

<3's x0xs BRiTTiaNNa

i hit rock bottom. brian cheated on me. but its better now. were not together but were not over. were friends. good friends. trying to get back together i guess. but i cant read into it b/c i just dont know what will happen. love is crazy. but i gotta go. bye. <3burr

i have it all... except for a car... but i have brian, i sooo totally am in love with him. this is the first night hes told me to my face he loves me. awww it was sooo great. i was over his house till like 1:00am... and yeah! im so happy. and then i got a cell phone, my first one! and i love it... its the new motorola, flip, color, picture phone. ( Read more... )

its been one year. ive made it through. only a million more to go.

omg you well never ever believe this. brian yes BRIAN plays the guitar. he used to be in a band with justin... yeah me and justin were talking about it. he said he was really good but like i didnt believe it. but umm yeah he is. and im like totally in love with him now. seriously. were not going out YET but im sooo down for it now. yeah really. MOM ( Read more... )

i dont have much to say. brian is nice one min. and then totally stupid the next. i feel like were getting no where. and it sucks. and its a waste of time. people are depending on me for so much this month. just a lil advice... this is a shitty month. dont bother me. and if you dont have anything nice to say dont say shit. b/c the big one year ( Read more... )

---- your hair, its everywhere... screaming infidelities... ----

yessss well thanks giving is over. joy. no more 1st holidays w/o dad thing to deal with. yea the 13th is right around the corner. i wonder if i have to go to school that day. its a monday. i really wanna go home to ohio... so i can visit his grave or something... but noooo. i cant do ( Read more... )

umm so yeah. today was a good day. brian got his hair cut and he looks sooo gay lol. its funny. aaahhha. hey yall my mom reads this so dont leave anything personal on here. leave it on my other 2 sites. kk. love ya. lol. okay so anyway. umm yeah nothing else to say... later gater.

okay so today is that day. its been 11 months since he died. i cant believe it. 11 months and im a totally different person. its funny how you have to lose someone that big in your life to realize that if you dont change you could be ruining your own. everything i do is for him, just so i can make him proud and so i can see him again. or will i ( Read more... )

life is sooo great. i love it. time after time it surprises me lol. i got ungrounded yesterday... i went to the movies then we drove around and went to this old house to go "ghost hunting" lol. total losers. brian is a dick. but whats new with that. i dont know why i like him. its crazy. okay well yeah that would be in. c/o 2005 baby! <33333