So I completely forgot that i had this until i was cleaning out my email account and here it was. I'm glad i found it. My stomache is churning right now with the thoughts that are going through my head. I met a guy, he seems nice. But i have this thought that he just wants to get in my pants which is kind of saddening. were suppose to hang out ( Read more... )

Just woke up about 20 minutes ago. I had the worse dream, well maybe not the worse dream but it shook me up pretty good and this isn’t a feeling that I like having. For some reason, I also feel like its worth writing down. Here goes my strangeness ( Read more... )

I'm hoping that maybe for the third time maybe I'll be able to get out whats going on with me. Last night after work completely sucked. I just went into one of my classical moods. I haven't had one of those nights in I don't even know how long. I'd like to say before I started working. But last night it hit me harder than it ever has. I was so sad ( Read more... )

At my breaking point and it sucks. Here and been here before and no doubt will be here agian. Not that lucky to visit this same dark place only once. I give up, if its possible to give up anymore than I have. I wish i could put it into words and not be upset and just be honest but I can't. I can't find the words to say that I'm unhappy. but they're ( Read more... )

I have no clue when the last time I wrote was. Hopefully not too long, and I only have a few minutes now before I go to work. listening to Natalie Imbulgia "Torn" I just randomly started singing it in the shower and was like damn thats how I feel. So I found it on Limewire and have been listening to it for the past 30 minutes at least. I don't ( Read more... )

A little bored and a little tired and a little hmmm don't know what to say. All is well and thats how I hope it remains. My mom locked the entire computer so I have no access online or to anything computer related. Which I think kind of sucks but I haven't determined yet. Only for the simple fact that not being able to get online doesn't really ( Read more... )

Not so angry anymore. I asked him about him and the girl and well he decided to be difficult and not tell me. But I will find out, I always do. Talked on the phone for 2 1/2 hours and it well it was entertaining none the less. Because now that I'm thinking about it, he is right getting upset about little things isnt going to make me happy and its ( Read more... )

Just trying to breathe and handle today and each moment with a clear and rational mind. Which is very hard to do right now. Ok so time to come clean because I can't handle all of the deception and evasiveness that I've become so comfortable with using lately ( Read more... )

Haha bought my new phone today. Lets just see my mom try to keep away from society. I win.

Home with the girls mom's in bed and I'm up and thinking and bored and going crazy. I hate this all of this. Was trying to convince Miranda to go to Kyle's party. For some reason I thought I'd try to since Ben, Dan and Dan got nowhere with her. I wonder if she went. I don't understand why she wouldn't want to go. I'd give to be able to go. But in ( Read more... )