So lately i have wanted a boyfriend more then anything. I think that i am pretty lonely but that is a given, I mena hell i have still to this day not had a real boyfriend. It kind of makes me feel liek there is somethjing wrong with me. I am a good guy right? i mean i try to be any ways. I think that it has to do with the fact that i feel like i am ( Read more... )

So i went out with Anat, Kathy and their friend Courtney (might i add that i love these girls i think that they are great, so fun). Ne ways we went to a bar, i cannot remember what it is called though, but it was pretty cool. There were alot of cool people there, and it really made me think about how i need to open up. I mean i am so up tight, i ( Read more... )

I came across a 1969 Chevy Camero almost a year ago and i fell in love. I literally fell head over heels in love with this car. The only problem was that it needs some fixing, i.e. it's interior was gutted (it did not have one) and needed to be fixed. Sounds like a simple enough job, but man-o-man was i wrong. A project car that i thought i could ( Read more... )

Ok so today was an odd, i was really depressed for no reason. Like overly depressed. I think that I ate all of the food in my house that i possibly could and i craved the oddest items (by odd i mean things that i ahve not craved in while). An example of this would be tomatoes. I ate like two tomatoes and would have eaten more if we had had the type ( Read more... )

I feel very accomplished today. Mainly because i went went over a co-workers house and i taught her how to use her MP3 player and also how to transfer songs to it, and also how to transfer songs from her CD's to her computer. I am kind of excited by it truthfully, i mean i have not felt accomplished at all during the last few weeks; hell i have ( Read more... )

I feel like i am going to break down soon. As the days go by i can feel myself gradually losing control of my emotions and starting to lose a grip on reality. I can no longer sleep, all i do is lay awake and think of what is wrong in my life, what i can do about it, how i can change, etc.... The closer that i am getting to this breakdown or what ( Read more... )

This whole situation with chris is starting to annoy me. For example he just does not stop trying. I mean i am cordial, if he im me or speaks with me i answer but i will not do that for him, i do not want to be around him or with him anymore. He is just such an asshole; he treats everyone like crap and then expects them to come back and i know ( Read more... )

It sometimes seems as though no matter how much or how long you try, your life is never going to be the way that you want it. It my own personal experience i feel as though my life is crashing down, but then again when doesn't it. Jesus i am so pessimisstic, i mean so what i no longer know my own sexuallity due to the fact of me dire want to plz my ( Read more... )

Ok so tonite was a seemingly normal night at Buca, i.e. i did not particularly want to be there. Ne ways what seemed to be nomal actual became bad. I was in the bar at Buca and i had left an empty plate on the divider, which separates the bar tables from the bartop. and as i was collecting plates from a table i took a step back and i hit the plate ( Read more... )

So I was told to concentrate on one thing and put my entire focus on that one thing, and then write about it. After some deliberation I came to music, more specifically the All American Rejects song, called "Move Along". At first I felt nothing, I was starting to get into the song and I could imagine the music video being the main singer being in a ( Read more... )