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Nocturnal......Wonderland............all night long...it was amazing..i saw paul oakenfold....live..::drools:::......i coundnt sleep...i candy flipped...so hardcore ( Read more... )

here i am writing in this again......welll for the past 2 days i havent really done anything....i neeed to get a job and bad....fuck im having deja vu........im angry at ritchie at the moment....he left us in oside last nigyht for like 3 hourrs.......tthanx thanx alot that was way harsh......yeah welll watever...I APOLIGIZE TO EVERYONE ( Read more... )

i know now...i know the truth...and your fuicking right blu....every last fucking word.....i dont need anyone,its more the addiction to commitment that i need....but ive been alone so long that i geusss its routine.....to be alone........im realllly kinda fuckin numb i wish i could feel.....thats y i cut to feeel.....i dont know wat it feels like ( Read more... )

im sick of the bullshit.......you know fuck every time i try to commit to something it dies horribly......i caught myself cutting last night again...i havent cut in a long time.....sometimes i reallly hate myself...for thinking i could actuaully find someone like me whos had a hard life like me....that i can actually be with....i need something ( Read more... )

i need to fucking vent.....................

its eating me.............

to just swalllow............

let it go......................drowning..............

im swallowd........

the rabbit hole is death.......

alll Lament with me.......

freee of shaklez......

pluck the quivering string................

Well i finally found that one person that I know can make me happy and (I think im already in love with her), but dont quote me on that her names blu and shes a sexy devil...........Grrrrr..... yeah well its been awhile since i actually could fall for someone..... but watever im sittin here listening to Paul Van Dyke tha best fuckin dj in the world ( Read more... )

well ive been out living agian and i find myself getting hurt of course thats how it alwasy is.... i cant even be myself for the people i love and i get lost in the sea of infinite possibilities (oops!). well i guess thats just how it goes ya know .. i always tend to hurt thos i care about most...and i cant do anything about it... well im gonna go ( Read more... )

throughout the past 2 years ive fallen in and out of love ive bean heartbroken ive broken hearts ive lost it all and im sick of all the bullshit fuck this fuck everything all my life is is misery.... just recently i was shot down again by kitty i had actually fallen for her, i hate myself for actually thinking that girl was possible of loving ( Read more... )