Every day trying to make up for the one before
climb three flights to tremble at the sight of your already open door
the frustration I see when I tell you I like some company
breaks my heart, how can you be so impartial?
and I've made myself the fool
who's fallen for you
so let me down softly this time &
I wont have to come back crying
I've just made ( Read more... )

im going to vomit.

all right well i know ive been updating almost every day this week... its been pretty eventful, actually ( Read more... )

friday-went to kt's. <3 straight chilled. philip and i talked a LOT & we're basically perfect now. we're are so attached & no one is having second thoughts at all. we just tend to overthink a hell of a lot. psh. well last night i took a nap on him. there really wasnt anywhere else i would have rather have been. it was a pretty great day. i was ( Read more... )

ive recently replayed underoath & the academy is for the past 2 days & i have this weird feeling connected to this music. all of it brings me back to the summer days i spent RELIGIOUSLY "devoted" to being with kt, michael & kind of lindsey. i know it may be kind of akward to say but i really kind of miss it. it was just so relaxed, free, immature  ( Read more... )

WOW. okay COMPLETELY NEW MOOD.
my mother got over it in like less then a school day.
i ended up going to katies friday night, saw the boys.
Spent most of saturday w/her too. we went shopping for valentines day-got phil a shirt he wanted, boxers, a MR POTATO HEAD, & kt and i are going to bake the boys cupcakes. then we saw Firewall with the boys. got ( Read more... )

my mother hates me.
ive cried so much today.
i cant even think about rewriting about all my emotions these past 2 days.
im going nuts. my stress has hit an all time high.
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to top that off, ive come to the realization that love IS everything & everything IS replacable.
so that makes love temporary right? A feeling that ISNT everlasting ( Read more... )

pretty nice weekend.
got a hair cut. SLEPT. saw When a Stranger Calls but phil was scared as fuckkkk so im pretty sure he made me think it was scarier than it actually was. got ice cream..hahah. went to katies. then got home round midnight.
right now, im babysitting til around noon. Superbowl is today..Kt, her dad & philip are coming over. it will be ( Read more... )

wow. this week was long.
sunday @ katies. did the usual--saw the boys. UH.
monday got sick. went to my sisters.
no school tuesday. mom got back from las vegas.
wednesday-almost passed out in spanish. skipped 6th.
thursday-gay.
today-philip & kt came home with me. we ate. watched flight plan & paycheck. good times. we just straight chilled. i love them ( Read more... )

as hoped, everything is perfectly fine. things are good now. life is splendid.
afterschool went w/kt,ry,phil & kavyon. you know, random bullshit then went to phil's.
AHHhh the memories. those boys are fuckin entertaining & phil is just amazing. uhhh..
my turtles DIED!
not sure when though...i just know that the last time i dealt with feeding them was ( Read more... )