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Stumbled down the rabbit hole again...
Another year lost to faint white scars that cover my arms in an intricate, lace pattern. Lying to myself, crying when my parents tell me they're celebrating my year of sobriety. Looking upon the sleeping form of the man I love with guilt, feeling as though he never would have walked this path again if it wasn't for me. Searching, poking and ( Read more... ) -
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We are considering a move to Phoenix. The clubs up there would provide a better income for me, I'd book more modeling jobs and my sweetie could peruse his acting career, since Tucson is greatly lacking in the arts department, and have some new work on his résumé before we leave for LA. Also, despite the love I have for my mother in law, living with ( Read more... ) -
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We ran down the rabbit hole, you and I, skipping merrily down to the bitter darkness we had so often shared.
Then the day came, I got the call on a pay phone at work. I heard the sadness in your voice.
"Hey babe, where's the fire? I've been doing really well to tonight, killing it."
"You need to come home now."
"What? Why?"
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My nephew passed away and I am heart broken. 32 years old. Really makes you think about how short life can be. He was so full of joy, a lust for life and all of its pleasures. He had just met the woman he pllanned on marrying, their wedding was to be this fall. And in the blink of an eye, he's gone.
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I have an amazing husband, and amid all of my anger, self loathing, when I was happy to crash and burn, I tried to push him away, screaming silently at him a question I myself could only answer. "WHO AM I!?" And it rang out in my head as I raced away from him, from Arizona, from my home towards Austin. I blamed him and continued to do so while I ( Read more... ) -
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There is nothing like sitting back, sipping my choice drink while reading a good book, nestled in the arms of the man I love. It is snowing outside, for the first time in six or seven years. I am blissfully content, having found the original spark of love and joy my husband originally brought me.
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I'm finally clean. Three Weeks clean to be exact.. Aside from some coke and booze. My husband and I are back together. Cassie broke my heart a few times over, after I was there for her nonstop. My adopted street brother has been going in and out of jail, now that he's on probation.. I was stripping, making mad cash, to the tune of six to eight ( Read more... ) -
welcome to LA
i am so at ease here it feels like anything is possible. i think i will cry when i see the ocean. pictures soon to come. -
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Trying to get myself back on the wagon again. It is so hard when to me, smoking a hit is like having an after work/after dinner cock tail. Went to a bonfire party the other night in my little mini-dress and trench coat, everyone was smoking pot and it was total torture since I haven't indulged in over a year and a half, thanks to my fiance's ( Read more... ) -
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The news on our Akita is good ( Read more... )