She abandoned me left out in the cold
No suprises I guess that's how it goes
Sits across from me in a booth in this dive
I contemplate how much more I can survive
But I'm alive so I should be content
Then tell why the hell my whole world is bent
I was sent to make and frustrate the population
In between the alcohol and the copulation

So it's 9:00 a.m. and I'm struggling to stay awake, and I've got class until 3:30 today. How is this going to work?

She's starting to ignore me. I want to know what she's doing. I kind of want to smash her face in with a led pipe.

Charles Starkweather, you were an ugly son of a bitch.

 Another long day struggling to maintain consciousness. Gregg said I talk about her an awful lot. It's true. I can't help it though. When someone has been a part of your life for that long it's hard to pick up the pieces when they leave. I'm trying so hard. It's time to go to sleep. The longer I stay awake, here, alone, the worse it's going to get ( Read more... )

I read the news today oh boy ( Read more... )

 I thought I wanted to find someone who wanted to find the same things I want to find. I've found that this is not the case. The thing that I want to find is fleeting, as all other things are. Happiness, like everything else I've found, is fleeting. Eventually someone will want to leave. Eventually it's back to being alone. Eventually you have to ( Read more... )

I'm not going to get better unless I get away from her. I'll miss her though. 

I've been thinking a lot about my early relationships lately. Nothing negative surprisingly enough. I think I just miss the innocence of it all. There was something fairly pure about those earlier experiences. I remember just wanting to be around those people and being content just spending time with them. It's amazing how complicated adults make ( Read more... )

 So the fire is almost out and there's nothing left to burn
I've run right out of thoughts and I've run right out of words

I hate her brevity. I hate being put on the back burner. Doesn't feel like there's much to look forward to lately. Feels like highschool all over again. I can't function this way. It's time to step up. Start being more independent. I need to fight for what I want. Wade through the shit, blood, and tears it takes to get there. No more fucking around

 *jumps off cliff*