it was her birthday yesterday and she called me :( so i went to canada and drank my ass off. i don't like blood comming from the inside and this is not the first time so i'm kinda getting worried. i don't like feeling like shit anymore it sucks.

its not who you are ( Read more... )

confusing conversation diverted to another form of manipulation and so on into endless contemplation which makes me fall back in my cycle of sleep depirvation while beating myself up with all of my aggarvation this life should not have this kind of intrications but i'm still searching for the annihilations of my frustrations and i found it but it ( Read more... )

its approximently 1 pm on sunday november 21st. i have no car, my phone is dead, no money unless you count canadian! i'm at bryans house and i have no idea how i got here, is all i know is that last nite was so much fucking fun, it was probably the most fun i've ever had. that was a great party, what a way to get off of probation, thank you to ( Read more... )

can anything cool ever fucking happen. god dammit somebody tell me what the fuck is wrong with me. i'm there, the ball is in your court, you make the call, but please let me know so i can keep moving forward with my life!!

well tonite was a good nite :) i don't think i'll regret the decision i made but only time can tell. right now i'm happy i feel like i got something back that was ripped away. like i came back to life to reclaim what was rightfully mine. with all the bullshit i've put up with i wanted a treat for myself and so i fulfilled my hunger. my once reality ( Read more... )

well it was about a year ago this time, the worst thing thats ever happened to me occurred. in the last year, I've done so much and lived a lot. i grew up a lot and learned more then i thought was possible in that time period. I've been on probation and ran around with the legal system, started and completed my first year of college. started ( Read more... )

well its that time of year again for me. last year it was a fucking blast and this year is suppose to be even better. my wonderful adventure into the upper penninsula should be... amazing. and i'm sure i'll have plenty of stories to come home with

this whole world is fucked up and its all bullshit, i said once but for real,

fuck this life, i want a new one!

i hate it, all of it, every fucking bit of it. will you guys please just make it all stop.