I never promised you a ray of light,
I never promised there'd be sunshine everyday,
I'll give you everything I have, the good, the bad.
Why do you put me on a pedestal,
I'm so up high that I can't see the ground below,
So help me down you've got it wrong, I don't belong there.
One thing is clear,
I wear a halo,
I wear a halo when you look at me,
But ( Read more... )

Is pretty much one big, confusing mess.  There have been so many happy times.  Unfortunately, for every happy time there has been an equal and opposite reaction.  More on that in a minute.

So, yeah, I like this boy. Most of you know that.  You pry it out of me reluctantly, or hear it through the grapevine, or make your assumptions while I do my ( Read more... )

Just thought I would let yall know that I am now back home in VA for spring break, so let me know if you would like to get together.

Also, my dad is having surgery tomorrow on his spine between his L4 and L5.  Depending on how bad things are, they will either do a decompression (recovery time a couple weeks), or a fusion of the vertebrae (recovery ( Read more... )

Happy Love Day.

Can I just say I have some of the greatest friends ever?
Not only did Mac and Gary surprise me with a new bike, Gary sent me flowers today.
I freaking love my boys!!

So, the window in our hallway is open this morning.  Nick asked Tray if he opened it.  He didn't. Nick asked me if I opened it. I didn't.  Nick says he didn't.  However, nothing was missing, so we assumed it must have been one of the guys who have been periodically doing work on our house.  Oh, how we were mistaken.  I get dressed and go to my one ( Read more... )

I haven’t written in so long, I’m unsure of where to start. These past few weeks have been such a roller coaster. We’ve barely scratched the surface of 2006, and yet it seems so defined. So many moments bursting with beauty and life...and so much heartache. I feel as if I’ve been bouncing from one extreme to another, and it all intermingles into ( Read more... )

Everytime I watch this movie (Closer), I want to cry for Alice.  I am Alice.  The naive young girl who gives her all for love.  The girl that men think they want, try to convince themselves they want, but, once attained, is discarded for something rash and lustful.  She gets to disappear.  Why can't I?

"I love you, why won't you let me love you ( Read more... )

I am giving up on hope.  Hope is an illusion.  It picks you up in your darkest of times, that one little glimmer in your eyes that believes everything will work out just fine, when in reality it only serves to lengthen your fall down to the bottom.  Hope makes you fall harder and faster.  With hope, you only get hurt more.  The wounds are deeper, ( Read more... )

Life is very long

You talk of blankness, and I'm there, too.  Alone, yet not, for there are hundreds of little voices hidden in the blinding light.  It's getting to the point where I would do almost anything to make them cease their heart wrenching chatter, their hurtful words, the constant buzzing.  There's got to be some way to drown out the fray ( Read more... )

My mother drives me freaking crazy.  I can't stomach her lies anymore.

Everything just seems to be falling apart, and I want nothing more than to just give up.  It would be so easy if I didn't care anymore.

I'm so confused.  And torn.  Confused and torn.  No elaboration.

Fade in, start the scene
Enter beautiful girl
But things are not what they ( Read more... )