As I sit here like . . . 12 hours later, I think about Sierra. I realize that not talking has driven us apart. It sucks . . . She is everything I could of ever asked for, but I guess the feeling was not mutual. I miss her so much. She was perfection in my eyes, I don't think anyone could ever even come close to matching her. :( I wish she could get ( Read more... )

Yeah I am single now . . . I fucking hate my life, I knew it was coming. I knew she'd probably hurt me and shit. God fucking damnit . . . I hate it all. I don't know why I go on living to know that every girl I go out with is there to hurt me and fuck with my head? Maybe Harley can forgive me and I could be with her, she is 70 miles away, but hey ( Read more... )

God damn computer. That's all I have to say . . . I had to redo it today. It's such a POS. Yeah I don't really know what to say . . . I am kinda not in a great mood. I miss talking to Sierra, I miss her so much :(. God damnit, I wish her parents weren't so mean somewhat so ya know she could get online and talk on the phone with me, and hang out ( Read more... )

Eh . . . I am a loser. Everything is going wrong. Life sucks. I want to die, but one person keeps me going. Even if I can't see or talk to her. Yeah you know who she is. Anywho, nothing is really going right, I want to see Sierra so badly, but I can't. I might just go over there at a random time out of no where. I just really miss her and it's ( Read more... )

Wow . . . I am bored. And I am doing to shitty . . . Sierra and I can barely talk, she is in trouble, her parents found out she went to Portland instead of just staying at Angies, so we like can't talk for like fucking 2 months. This sucks . . . I feel like my batteries have run dry. Damnit all . . . I finally get to be with my dream girl and ( Read more... )

MOTHER FUCKER!!! I had a SHITLOAD typed like . . . GOD FUCKING DAMNIT!!!! AHHHHHH!!!! Explorer fucked up on me, THIS IS HORSESHIT!! *kicks his computer* God damnit I guess I will start over . . . last night I spent the night at a friends house with Jeff, Fred, jenn and Krystal. It was god damn boring but I ate all the cookie dough in the house, ( Read more... )

Rrrriiiggght. I am bored, my day kinda sucked . . . well the night did. The day was okay because I talked to Sierra for like a minute, lol. Then later it kinda lamed out. I went to Jeff's and then everyone ditched me because I couldn't go to Krystal's house because her parents don't know me . . . Fuckers. Fred wants to hang out sometime, but I ( Read more... )

Wow I am bored, lol. Today we practiced a bit. It was okay, we are working on a new song. It's pretty good. Scott want's to do harder stuff so . . . fuck it here we go, lol. Yeah I am kinda out of it, I don't know what to say at all. I tried calling Sierra today, but her mom picked up and was like . . . she is in big trouble, and I was like . . . ( Read more... )

lol . . . What's up? Nothin much today, I got home from Kittery around 1 this morning and didn't sleep at all, too much was on my mind and I liked it for once. Laying there thinking about Sierra and all my friends and imagining where this band could go. It could go to hell, lol. But a lot of us see it going to one day like Slipknot status. And with ( Read more... )

Hey everyone, what's up? Nothin much here, fartin around, kinda bored . . . Tomorrow is the show, Pat will probably mess up. Cause cathrynn will fucking distract him, just like at practices, and I will get pissed off. Eh . . . oh well. Anywho, lol. Yeah I wont have a post for friday. Kinda sucks, but whatever. I never have anything cool to say, ( Read more... )