have had your mother tell you that she couldnt stand to be around you because you made her miserable and pissed her off? does your mother hate you only becausee you hated her first? and then ahs she stormed off in her car only to leave you with your grandmother who tries to use her psychology shit on you? and your gamndmother then asks you if you ( Read more... )

yeah i thought a lot last night..... oh and though by the way i talk it may sound like i cut or something, i dont i want to make that clear, i just dont want people to misinterpret my statments, yes i guess im sort of depressed or whatever but i have fun while being depressed which ia good haha. i get my anger and stuff like that out through my ( Read more... )

dude sorry about yesterday its just i had a lot on my mind and i needed to get some of it out, like barley no one reads this anyways so i didnt think it would matter if i put it on here. that thought has always been on my mind and i dont want to kil myself, i wouldnt haev the strength to do it. its just a general thought for all who kill themselves ( Read more... )

i dont see the point in living, no one would miss me. you would all go on living life , walking down the street as if all is normal and no one would feel the absence of my soul. i have done nothing for any of you, my prescnece is insignificant it would make no difference, just one less trouble, one less worry and one less tear ( Read more... )

i find life extremely unpleasant right now. im sick of people. i need to go out and do something anywhere but at home but i cant. i am sick of being alone. i am sick of trying, whenever i try to help people it always backfires and they get pissed i dont see why i even care anymore. i find that im on a boat of despair(as my freind described it) and ( Read more... )

im quite happy because sam and i are going to W land(wassaic)! and we just gfot home from school, we walked to my house, but we sat there with steve, ben, and justin i have 2 more freinds now! weeeee!(ben and justin) haha that means i have a total of..... lets see..... 1....2...3....4......5.....5..5 freinds now! haha. and im happy. but ummmmmmm im ( Read more... )

i am extremely bored, and sick of people being so damn miserable! if you are going to be miserable then dont come near me , it pisses me off and gets me upset! just go away! and im not going to name who, but this person thinks their life sucks so bad! and you have it so much better than me, you have no reason to be so damn miserable just because ( Read more... )

This is a triffle delayed, but im joyous because Nikki slept over and graced me with her prescence, but that is not my point, she made my lj beautiful and magnificant. Well, im sitting in my room, bored at night, wen i should be in bed....... *looks around suspiciously*. I fear i must go. Only because i have no idea what more I have the need to ( Read more... )

All of you people who are fighting right now are quite frankly pissing me off. i can't stand how you all treat eachother when this happens, you all and up getting over it in about a week every time so just save us the heartache and dont fight in the first place.And everyone stop being so miserable every waking moment. It makes all the others around ( Read more... )

haha i got back from sam house and i miss nikki and sam and emme muchly! haha im eating a popsicle and wen i have it in my mouth i c my breathe wen i breathe it is so clod. i dnt wanna take the TONYSS tommorow just cuz their life sux ass doesnt mean they should havbe to fuck with ours by giving us these stupid tests o well ill fail on purpose haha ( Read more... )