i hate myself and want to die

since about 9:30 last night the thought of blowing my head off has ran through my head at least 150 times......im thinkin thats not healthy........i never saw myself as a conventional suicide person...not shooting myself...i thought id get all artsy with the shit...who knows...shit happens.......

im sadened...mike was supposed to come to graduation..but now he cant b/c he has to work...that sucks..im not mad...jsut really not happy about it...i wanted him there almost more than my parents...... o~well..im used to it ( Read more... )

hmm...8:15 is a craaazy time to get off of work......

everything is soooooo perfect and soooooooo wrong at the same time......... im absoulutly happy (for the first time in a while) and utterly sad..........

PROM TWENTY-OH-FIVE BABY!!!! WHOOP-WHOOOP!!!!!!!!!

EVEN THE UGLY PPL WERE HOT.....

fri-got off work got -went to chill with my boss-got alcohol-went to mikes-me mike aaron and jonathan-fun times------mmmmmmmm was a beautiful night after the drinking was over ( Read more... )

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mikes in jail...ive mixed feelings about this...hes screwed and is prolly gonna get some time...i shouldnt care..im not gonna say i dont but if u ask me ill prolly deny it...i am so tired of skool..its a battle to go and stay everyday..u've no idea....i think im loosing two of my best friends....and kevin,boo-im pissed...u finally got me so mad ( Read more... )

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